It wasn't often that Wren had nightmares anymore. At least, nightmares that pertained to the war. She didn't wake up feeling as if she was soaked to the bone with blood, her pale fur stained red. It wasn't often that she tried to fight her way, kicking and sobbing, from her partner's grasp, choking on the air in her lungs as her chest heaved and the dying cries of her peers singing in her ears. No, she didn't break the gentle quiet of the dark nights often anymore. Nowadays, it only happened once every few weeks or so, far fewer than when she had them almost every other night. But that didn't stop her other nightmares, the featherless Aviari almost always waking up in the middle of the night.
If she were honest when others asked, she'd admit that she couldn't remember the last time she'd slept soundly through the night. But she was never honest when they asked.
Her nightmares weren't as bloody anymore, less about the war. Now they were about Ragnarok, almost
always about Ragnarok when they weren't about her failures and the disappointment of her family. She dreamt that he was leaving her, as he often threatened, and he wouldn't come back. She would be on the ground, crawling after him and begging him to stay like the piteous creature she knew herself to be. He would never turn, never even send her a glance. He'd just keep walking and she would keep crying, tears falling to the dusty ground as she lost him. It was those nightmares that sometimes frightened her more than those she had about the war.
Other times, it was about the Crystallines and their disappointment in what she'd become. She'd dream of their cold, pale eyes looking down at her as she trembled beneath the heavy weight of their gazes. They'd whisper and, god, did she hate how they'd whisper. They'd whisper about her lack of feathers, snickering as they pondered if Xiuhcoatl spared her of what ugly feathers she might've ended up with had they grown in. Or they'd whisper about her relationship with Ragnarok, how foolish she was to be with him.
"But then again," they'd remind themselves,
"only an Obsidian could love her."
The night prior, it had been the latter of the three. She had woken up, breathing quick and short, slipping away so she could get just one gulp of fresh air. Helena, her chinchilla, was always quick to wake up and climb up her leg to sit amongst her soft, downy fur. And then, having taken her fill of the night air, she'd have returned to her partner and wormed her way back into his grasp, experienced at the action after doing it so much, falling asleep once more.
Just at the cusp of day, she woke again. Though, this time, her breathing was not harsh and quick. It was still dark, dawn just about to break free from the suffocating grasp of night. She looked over at Ragnarok's sleeping face, which, at the moment, appeared peaceful. It was so unlike from the usual sour twist of his features, such a stark contrast that if she were any person other than herself she might have been surprised. But she wasn't surprised, allowing herself the smallest, softest smile. It was these tender moments that she loved the most. Leaning forward, she pressed her muzzle into his fur to wake him. As much as she'd like the moment to last longer, she knew that the day had to start at some point.