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  THE POWER OF TWO
Posted by: Tia - October 31, 2017, 10:20:38 AM - No Replies

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  Look at this photograph (of this problematic ship) [ARCHIVE]
Posted by: Crow - October 31, 2017, 01:48:26 AM - No Replies

Quote: Her head felt as though fire was coursing through her brain, throbbing hard against the walls of her skull, as she stood still and grimaced. She gritted her teeth and tried to ride it out, stomach rolling as she fought to stay perfectly still. The slightest movement could throw her, and her breathing picked up as the final waves dulled away. Tenderly she stepped forward, not trusting herself to open her eyes just yet. The heat of the day was enough to ripple in the distance, heat lines dragging out over the already blinding desert scenery. Light was not her friend today, the blinding pain it brought came and went as it pleased, unpredictable and uncomfortable.

Virra knew exactly why this happened - she hadn't been Rengyo for years for nothing - but the remedy for a headache was not helpful in the least. The tea tree plant in her mouth made saliva build up as she continued to chew, ignoring the stabbing pains that ran along the sides of her head from the movement of her jaw. Tears threatened to prickle the corners of her eyes, but she held them in in shaky breaths through her nose. Everything in her begged her mind to quit working, to silence for even five minutes if it would help stop the throbbing in her face and skull. But her mind was a speeding train on rails that did not end.

Gritting her teeth and squinting her eyes, she opened them momentarily to scout the area around her. Everything felt vaguely fuzzy, blinded by the sensitivity he had to the light, but in the near distance she saw a tall tree. The outside of the forest maze, the tall and overbearing branches of what hadn't burnt was more than enough to stop the sun's bearing on her. Virra whined lowly as she lumbered towards the trees; small movements that took her twice as long to reach where she was going than she would have normally. But it was a sacrifice she was willing to make to lighten the raging against her skull. Swallowing a hard lump of chewed herb, she felt around for the tree with her paws.

Sliding against the trunk, she looked around her with closed eyes, focusing on the scents that wafted to her face. Not that it would help, she was in far too much discomfort to really focus on anything for too long. Actually, that was why she hadn't noticed him around at all. Laying on the semi-cooled desert dirt beneath the tree, she placed a paw over her head and pressed dull dog nails between her eyes. The medicine was starting to help, but not much and not nearly fast enough. What a great day.
Quote:Maybe he'd followed her through the maze. Of course he did; that was Crow's nature, to be the pursuer, the hunter, the shadow, wasn't it? It had been, anyway. For this long. Yet now he stood in the shade of a gargantuan half-fallen tree supported only by at least two charred others that had fallen to the extinguished fire, listening to her writhe and try not to sob, without being entirely sure how he'd gotten there. This wasn't totally unusual, it had happened before, and yet -- and yet --

He did nothing for a long moment, uncharacteristically blank. Just watching. Nothing else. Reorienting.

I am losing myself, he might have thought had he been more introspective. But his mental landscape had no words to proffer as he watched Virra unseen, all flame-washed fields empty and cleansed, like the Dragon had burned away more than his skin, had taken from him more than his body and his genes and his freedom for countless days and nights. His purpose. His fear. Was it entirely certain, that she hadn't cut his throat back there, bled him dry on the jungle weeds, and everything since had only been a dream?

Flinty eyes rolled as he approached her from behind, their attentions uncontrolled, not even by this little lamb he enjoyed so much. They darted, back and forth, devouring the still-healing forest, every inch they saw. Lips peeled back in a mirthless grin, static and senseless and somehow wrathful. We have nothing to repay this with -- me, her, US, these mortal gods, these captive infidels --

"Oh dear," were the words crooned to the back of her head, oily and slippery and filled with something unlikable, some complete mockery of tenderness that maybe didn't know it was a mockery. "We're a little worse for the wear, aren't we?"

The sounds of pain and dizziness shouldn't have pulled that old hungry wolfsmile to his lips like it did. And it definitely should not have prompted him to encircle her, almost catlike, and actually curl around her prone body, too close, too intimate, though he did not touch her.

"Poor you. Whoever heals the healers, love?"

Quote:Of course - it would be him. Eyes squinted from sensitivity, she caught a glimpse of yellow paws encircling her. He was close, so close. Everything in her would scream to run, get up and go, put as much of the burning earth between them as she possibly could ... but her inner voice was currently screaming at her to remember to breathe between radiating waves of pain. Virra could do nothing, just lay there as the predator haunting her dreams drew to her suffering like a moth to a flame.

"Oh dear, we're a little worse for the wear, aren't we, love?"

If she shuddered from fear at the crooning voice at the back of her skull she'd vehemently deny it. She'd deny the chill up her spine at the hot breath against her fur - reminding her that he could so easily rip open the back of her neck. Her heart slammed in her chest at the proximity he had to her, Virra moving her snout under her paw so the wrist would press between her eyes. Whatever was causing the migraine was not getting any better with his presence - it seemed to be getting worse, as instincts were torn between conserving energy and spending it all on panic.

"Poor you. Whoever heals the healers, love?"

Virra suppressed the natural instinct to shy away at this, memories flashing behind her eyes like unwelcome house guests. Of healing him, of it being a horrific mistake ... but ... Did he owe her, still? Owe her for tearing even a little into the only creature so naive as to try and help him, from the goodness of her heart? Who would still help him, with the same goodness despite the weariness that shrouded it. Did he owe her anything?

"Please," she whispered, not quite sure what she was asking. Her throat swelled with a mix of anxiety, dryness, and underuse. When was the last time she'd taken a break to actually talk to someone? Why did that person have to be the only one in this pack who probably (very unsubtle) wanted to either kill or try and corrupt her. At least everyone else kept their agendas to themselves - Crow wore his like a prideful mask. "Crow," Virra hated the weakness of her voice, taking in a deep breath before trying again.

"Can you help me ... please?"

Quote:Her pores exhaled terror and he drank it in hungrily, craving it like an addict craves another dose of smack, the kind that hits you hard and fast and leaves you friendless and penniless and naked on some seedy, filthy bathroom floor. He needed it, in the same way that someone like Virra needed to feel safe and beloved, and oh, how grossly competent he'd become at seeking it out. Find the easy meat at their most vulnerable. Show them that you can see where they were weak, how you could rip them apart. Those jaws, pale and moistened on the inside, were open and hot and intimately close to her soft neck, never mind the soothing words that oozed from the throat beyond them.

"Please," she keened, and when he raised his head again to meet her despondent gaze, she might only feel the dread in her belly, the agony in her skull, intensify sickeningly. This sympathy and affection of his, they were all so much surface shine, scratched away should one pick at it with a nail, and there was something incredibly, terrifyingly predatory about the way Crow looked at Virra now. It wasn't that he grinned at her, or laughed at her obvious distress, or seemed coldly apathetic...

Maybe she would have to stare deep into his pinprick-pupil eyes to really see it. To see what the starving, slavering, mindless beast under his crude, rapidly crumbling attempt at an altruistic mask wanted at heart to do with her.

"You're so beautiful when you're afraid." Spoken with a sigh that infused itself into the words. Longing. Hoarse. He exposed his teeth, gritting them hard, as though battling something away. "Of course, love. I'll help you." Beneath the moonlight, he winked his milky blind eye at her. "That's only fair, isn't it?"

Crow encircled her, studying her prone body an indulgent moment, before pushing her sharply upward with his snout, upon the sensitive area just behind her front legs where the ribs on that side shielded the heart. Hopefully it would make her stand reflexively, if only just to avoid the needling, annoying pressure. When and if she did, he'd begin to herd her deeper into the forest maze, the scent of wet ferns and moss growing exponentially as they progressed. Should she whine or stumble, he'd shush her with that same vile tenderness and coax her on.

"Now then... tell me what hurts." Tell me allllllll about it. "Tell me how I should take care of you tonight, Virra."

Behind her, he smiled, and if she could not see it, she'd certainly hear it in his voice.

Quote:She knew this was dangerous, knew she was completely, pathetically helpless against what was happening around her. he didn't know the half of it. And if she had, would it have really mattered? Could Virra truly do anything that would make him stop -- did she actually believe he would if she asked nicely? The ache in her head swelled as he spoke, his words no different than they had been moments before. But there was something in them, something that made their meaning seem miles away.

It terrified her.

"You don't ..." his eye, of course. The wink had thrown her off. Was that was this is all about? Some distant (but not as distant as she dare hoped) memory of their first meeting? Did he think he had to repay her in some way? And by that logic, shouldn't she repay him for the way his teeth had grazed her in return for her help? Not that she would lay a single dull nail on him. He was untouchable, both physically and metaphorically. "You don't have to," Virra tried again, ignoring the way her brain burned with the effort of speaking, "don't want to burden you ..."

Was she backing out? It was too late.

His snout jammed into the sensitive space by her ribs, and she wondered if he could feel her heart stop dead beneath his nose. Ice ran through her veins as she scrambled to her feet, wincing loudly as the movement jarred her head. Soothing shushes left his lips, but it did nothing to calm her. Virra let herself be walked back, deeper into the forest maze. Her breath came in short gasps, panic threatening to spill over, but she wouldn't let it. With as much calm as she could muster she answered, pointedly ignoring the sheer discomfort at what his words implied.

"M-my head," she turned around so her back was to him, stars sparking along the edges of her vision as dizziness threatened to unbalance her. She had to keep going, didn't want to know what would happen if she stopped now. Ears pinned back against her skull as another wave of fire broke across her forehead, shooting back to the nape of her neck. Maybe it would just be easier if he did kill her.

"Crow," against her better judgement she stopped. Virra didn't look back, couldn't bring herself to. "Why are you doing this?" A vague question. What? Leading her deeper in, acting the way he was? Her body shook and she felt like she was going to cry -- not all of it by fault of the headache. She was losing the composure she had on her fear, and it was only getting worse. "Why are you -- why do you want ... to help me?" A change of tactic midway through.

What do you hope to gain from this?

Quote:
we could live
for a thousand years
but if I hurt you
I'd make wine from your tears


~

"Oh, love," he crooned to her with an airy laugh, "you're no burden."

She was such a kind woman, soft in a way most wolves of the valley simply were not, and from the start it had intrigued him even as it flooded him with the deepest contempt, made him want to keep her whole even as it made him want to tear her apart, leave her filthy and sobbing and besmirched inside like him. She was something precious, like a rare bird, and too pure even to comprehend what motives Crow might possibly have for helping her in this time of need. Could she sway him if he decided to hurt her? Did he desire to pay her back for her altruism? He was a beast, and he'd bask in her pleas, and he felt no reverence for debts, and yet --

she came to him. Again and again, their worlds collided. He ran in her blood.

"Keep going," was all he said in response to her admission. A little bit of cephalgia never killed anyone... or maybe it did. The sohei was certainly no doctor. Maybe didn't even know what a brain tumor was, much less how to diagnose or treat one.

Cocoa trailed by ink, they headed deep into the labyrinth, a disorienting maze not least of all in this suffocating dark. She broke the silence perhaps with muffled whimpers or other noises of animal agony; he remained quiet, even his footsteps mostly soundless, just a pair of bright, penetrating, unreadable eyes watching her every move. Watching how she moved, her gait meandering and unbalanced.

A den, on the lightless horizon. Crow nudged her in ever so helpfully and prowled right in after her if she cooperated, effectively placing himself between her and the exit.

"Come here, Virra," he purred, winding catlike around her body and pressing her into the ground, urging her not forcefully to lie down. And was this the first time he'd called her by name? "Stay with me tonight... Nobody will find you here. I don't sleep, you know. I'll watch over you."

(Or you could take her to a doctor, you selfish piece of shit.)

"Why...?" He considered her question blithely; as he answered it he'd encircle her, far too close, and lie with her if she'd done so, the side of his head close to hers. Blue eyes could stare deep into basilisk's yellow. "I suppose it's because I want to keep you around."

He turned the entirety of his gaze to her and grinned almost reflexively. Sickeningly hot breath would mist across her face like the wind before a violent storm.

"What we have is... intimate. It's more powerful than love. Don't you think so?"

Quote:nutter butter come cuddle my shitty character

Quote:She wishes she were a burden to him. That they were not so destined to be together in some capacity he wouldn't bother keeping her pristine. Treating her more like a priceless doll given to a child, hesitant to play with it, yet wanting to see how much pressure would take to break it.  Was this what he was doing? Seeing how hard he could hold her before her porcelain cracked and turned to dust. Before he could keep her among his other broken dolls.

Virra sways and stumbles, graceless yet graceful in the way she falters. She does not lean on him for help, trying to retain some sort of power against the beast leaving her powerless. Her skull aches and burns, and when they arrive at the den she hardly sees it for what it is. The darkness inside is inviting, the light too blinding for her to see anything past vague shapes and shadows. Crow nudges her in and she goes willingly, shaking and grateful somehow for the way his massive form blocks the entrance.

"Crow ..." the fear radiating from her is palpable but she lets him lie her down. Curling on the cold ground with him all over her, pressing against him as if he were a blanket. The drop of her name is not lost -- have they moved into a first name basis? What were they? What had they been all this time? "I want to stay around," nearly a plea as she feels rather than sees him lie in front of her. Would it be enough to stop him from tearing her apart in her sleep?

His face is close to hers, marked by the hot breath in her face and the light playing off of the wild eye in front of her. This close she can see him and she can't decide if it's better to have him close and in sight or away to pretend it was anyone else. Her ears fall flat at his last few words. "Intimate?" He wasn't wrong. What they have is nowhere near love, and yet, somehow it's not hate. There was a beast in his heart but Virra couldn't find it in her to truly hate the man --

perhaps she was always going to foolishly hope that the good in people would shine through.

"Do you love me, Crow?" Then why do you want to hurt me? "We're ... connected." She wasn't sure how to describe what they were other than steeped in fate and misfortune. They were always meant to cross paths, they would always continue to cross paths. Breathless as a wave of nails drag across her skull she digs her cheek into the ground, fighting back any noise.

If she could pretend she was strong he'd keep her. Right?

Quote:We feel such enchantment for the rare birds we choose to cage; it's only cheapened by attempts to reason why.

She was no doll to him. Nameless heathens were dolls; the slave caverns were stocked full of them. Nor was she a mirror; he could squeeze all her awe and terror from another stone. I want to stay around, she keened softly, and oh, this was nothing new, there was no plea for life and limb he'd never heard before, in the end it was all the same hideous wailing, please Crow please please stop I'll do anything just don't please no PLEASE.

None of it was anything new at all. Yet here remained the fascination, the bizarre longing. A lion may adopt a small gazelle in an unprecedented and mysterious move, but the bloodthirst beneath still boiled. He was a predator tugged between worlds, an unstable Scheherazade who liked the songs and stories Virra had to give. Too much for. That.

She should be very afraid.

"Do you love me, Crow?" And he seemed to consider this, oddly enough, though to some of course it would seem more likely that this question would only make him laugh. Love... his mother had loved him, once upon a time. Ink and Blackout and Zashi, all in their own mad ways. Love was so much hunger. Love was using and being used. You kept someone around; you thought twice about following the impulses you had towards them. Sometimes that mattered. He could feel love, maybe. But --

Virra was grinding her face into the dirt. She was closing her eyes. Her words were an indistinct whine. This impulse, like a pulsation of light, he didn't deny: pale jaws opened and lunged and closed and all at once her throat was inside. Her throat and all its arteries and its little windpipe and its pretty voice and its soft breath were snared and trapped and compressed by the points of a terrible vicegrip. He didn't choke her, but he moved backward, maybe he took away her footing, and then --

Wet heat unfurled on a downy neck. The yellow eye, its pinprick pupil, it rolled down to study her face. He could taste her pulse hammering against the flat of his tongue. Oh Virra, you know some of me wants this. Virra, do you know the only difference between you and your long-gone sister is a little more pressure?

Then he let her go, only seconds later. Some of him wasn't enough.

"Oh... I think I have to love you." He laughed and smiled feverishly and forgot what he'd just done. Moved again, this time to the mouth of the cave, to look out upon the world like a roosting dragon. "That must be true. I want you here. So much more than. I want you. GONE."

He hadn't known that for sure before. Now he did. Even if was still for the best that he did not keep too close to her sick, vulnerable body.

Said he again, as though such a thing was possible, "Go to sleep, love. We'll both be here in the morning."

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  Did you make it to the top of the world just to die? [ARCHIVE]
Posted by: Crow - October 31, 2017, 01:42:54 AM - No Replies

Quote:The maze lay open for him as though somewhere within these holy gates had been someone who'd awaited his untimely arrival. Where did you go? the ferns did not question. Will you stay? the fallen tangle of trees did not nag. They only stood, silent beautiful barricades that separated here from there, allowing he and his charge passage where they might have confounded and entrapped someone who did not belong here.

It was in the dead of night, upon the saplings still budding from the charred corpses of their ancestors, that Crow emerged from the grave that could not quite hold him to finally return home. Like a warrior, filthy with blood and slime and digestive fluids, who was swallowed whole by something titanic

and plunged all the way down into its great belly

and cut his fucking way back out.

He sat upon his lean haunches, setting down the burden he'd been carrying and throwing his head back to stare at the night sky, into housands of pinprick stars painted over a black canvas. Tilted his sharply angled head to the little body bringing up the rear, his blind eye registering only snatches of mottled, moving brown. "Stay," he told it, not at all unfondly... just before he peeled back lips and teeth to usher forth a jagged, ripping, throaty screech of a howl, wrathful and bestial to its core. It was a summoning, and even more than that, it was an uncompromising demand of recognition.

Even in spite of all his wildness and monstrosity, maybe Crow still needed someone to be here for his return. If not only just to stare in wide-eyed awed horror as this wolf crawled back intact and strong from something that had destroyed gods.

I know you all missed me. The cheers turned to cries when /they/ stopped listening.

But I've come back now. And I've learned so much.

Let me show you.
Quote:She had never met her great-grandfather.

But as the howl reverberated over Oukoku-Kai, even Anamelech knew to whom it belonged. A ghost had rose from the grave.

She honestly considered just leaving Crow there waiting for her, possibly asking a Jin or two to dispose of him, make it look like an accident. Oh, what a tragedy, how the ex-White Seour was found lying on the borders! An unexpected snag in her plan was that she knew Ink was devoted to her former Shogun, so she would never procure the Captain Ni's cooperation in executing such a scheme. In the years Crow spent terrorizing Oukoku-Kai, he had somehow, either through charisma or intimidation, accumulated a respectable number of lackeys that could have defended him from her wrath, and as much as she was loathe to admit it, she had to take that into account.

Anamelech was still queen, and she had more than a few tricks up her sleeve.

The situation was not unsalvageable. Between the possibility of Aglacea and Crow returning, this was the more favorable outcome. She was a queen who wielded many masks, and the one she chose for today was the facade of a delighted grandchild, her effervescent smile beaming as she rushed through the forest maze. Anamelech stopped as soon as Crow's black, hunched silhouette came into view, eyes immediately honing in on the tiny child cowering in his possession. Oh, so he had brought a snack with him. No matter.

Anamelech made a show out of looking him over, as if she were actively comparing his features to her own, but it was not entirely a charade. He was truly her father's progenitor, his darker, skeletal shadow.

"Welcome home," Ana giggled, wearing her most radiant smile. "Great-grandfather!"

Welcome home, indeed.

Crow had a fearsome reputation, but he wasn't White Rose. Where her father had hesitated to dispose of his favorite attack dog on the many occasions he overstepped his bounds, Anamelech would condemn her great-grandfather to death in an instant if he threatened the balance of the power she kept. What Crow had done to Lazaret - what that mob had done - the carnage, all of it, would pale in comparison to what she would inflict on him. People were so very malleable, so obedient, and all of them so desperate to appease their queen without question.

Crow wasn't the only one who could work a crowd.
Quote:Zephaniah had met the world and deemed it good. The whole of creation burned with radiance - it was Father and him, seeing everything as they traveled. The boy was quick to learn, healthy of body, and similar enough in appearance to Crow (and not at all to Azuhel) that Crow had apparently not felt inclined to do anything too terrible to the boy, at least not yet. The little creature was oddly perceptive towards his father, learning quickly his moods, and wisely knowing when to cease his barrage of questions in exchange for obedient silence.

The came upon a maze, and the boys feet began to tingle, his blood began to feel as though it were static. Their pace had slowed, he knew that something exciting was coming.

"Stay," Crow said, and his little bright eyed nestling stayed, would always stay. Father's lips parted in a ferocious howl, and Zephaniah, though obediently staying, was still young enough to want to mimic all of his father's mannerism, to be like him. He lifted his own chin and a gave a tiny, eerie replica of the howl. Come and greet my father! For he is great and terrible. He looked to Crow and offered a shiny milk-tooth smile.

The first to come was a black and red and white wolf. "Welcome home," She giggled, and Zephaniah returned her greeting with a swelling grin. It was easy to like her. She had...something. "Great-grandfather!" The woman was lovely and her smile was toothy, and Zephaniah felt drawn to her. This was his relative? He felt a swelling of pride with his association with her. She looked like someone important.

"Home..." He said in his little puppy voice, eyes wide. Eyes hungry.
Quote:[size=10pt]They were moving, constant writhing shapes of heat and shame. They screeched and clawed, in pain and desperate… they cried for more, thirsty and starving… These shapes, so wicked and ominous, flowed from the darkness demanding their pound of flesh and blood in a manner so strongly it was nearly tangible. She choked upon it, felt its weight crushing her, invading her, changing her until their screeching canopy became more like a song of praise.

The darkness had swallowed her.

The darkness had chosen her.

And now it wanted her to learn.

A whirlwind of color then, followed by the theft of oxygen before a smear of red and black broke the horizon. They cracked the endless black, shattered it with a flickering light. It brought with it a sense of power, overwhelming, alluring, enchanting and to her—her—they beckoned!!

With a howl that shattered the dream.

She came to wakefulness with snarls and snaps, her teeth saliva slick and ready moving to bite into flesh, her clawed digits spread to rip and tear. There’s a squeal at her side by a heavy body, a scrambling, an answering snarl as Canaan found her mouth full of soft fluff and wide nearly unseeing eyes. A beautiful song had torn her from such sweet dreams and now poor Enix had paid the price. It’s not long that she’d hang onto the ear she’d managed to snag though, not when the older wolf in her den rumbled with the rage of the god she had once been. Still, as soon as she’d let her mother go it was Canaan’s turn to squeal as open muzzle and screeching words chased her from her own sanctuary.

M-mommy…” Canaan wavered, soft smile in place as she gave a nervous lick of her lips. Fortunately the irate Enix did not emerge from the den and soon, with a slight swish of tail Canaan moved away, her mind once more focused on the call, her heart still beating with the excitement of a short tussle and a wild dream.

One she would cherish for quite sometime.

Her arrival is swift, her approach a smooth walk of confidence. She’s eager, her gaze bright with a newfound adoration for the male who had returned to them. Returned… to her.

She allowed Ana her speech while she looked over Crow, admiring his broken form, amazed at his newfound scars that no doubt told stories she desperately wanted to hear. She breathed a bit faster, her tail set to twitching… This was not Grendel that had returned to them, but Crow. The wolf who had been no doubt taken by the Red Dragon.

And lived.

Canaan knew, she knew that he had to have been taken. Though she had digged and toiled under the suffocating smoke of Azuhel’s most precious gift when Crow had not returned to them covered in sot and reeking of exhaustion she’d somehow known that he had left them, left them for the glory of the beast that had struck them originally. That selfish creature, that wicked twisted filth that haunted her waking thoughts like an obsession left uncured.

….yes.” She whispered, soft and pliant. He had left them and returned with another, a small child, a gift. Was it… could it be… She could barely think over the howl of her feelings, over the rising bile creating uncalled for envy that made her knees feel weak and her breath come out in pants. She’d taken him over her, she could only assume could only… could only believe that that had to be true! There was no way he could have survived the warmth of her fire… the hot slaughter would not have passed him over if he had not been… been CHOSEN.

….yes…” She whispered again, looking down to the child that spoke. That called this licentious valley and the fanatical lunatics within it his home. It would be his home, his paradise, until he found himself screaming and struggling in the tar… until he found himself coated in the blood of those that sought to oppose him… until he found himself alone and empty….until… until… this space became his hell.

That’s when she smiled, something nasty, something thrilled, with her chest pushed out proudly and her muzzle open to whisper the name of the being who had once brought so much terror across this pathetic landscape. Let him see the power of her knowledge, let him know in the wide shimmering depths of her gaze that she knew what others would never understand, and let him see her hatred of him for being the one that left unshackled by the very authority she had once toyed with until it had become all that she could be. It had consumed her, the very duty of her father’s namesake, until nothing was left but the urge to burn and the hunger for worship.

And let him see her love of him for being able to survive and for coming home.

Welcome home...brother.” She finally croaked, her cheeks wet from the tears she’d shed, that seemed so abnormal against the backdrop of her sudden perversion.

We missed you so much.
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Quote: The dead of night was always when she could be found wandering around her homeland. Sleepy eyes heavy with insomnia often closed as she entered a trance-like state of mind; Virra had traveled these lands far too many times, all of it imprinting like a map inside her mind, causing her to be unable to become lost no matter how long she casually walked along. In fact, ever since they had returned from the outside, she had found herself sleep walking through the forest maze. Was it her subconscious trying to get her back on the other side of the burnt trees? Was it out of habit? Either way, it was rather fortunate that she did this.

A howl ripped her from this state and she snapped her eyes open wide, blinking in the moonlight as she turned to look back in the direction of the voice. There was something familiar about it, like a bad dream that stuck with you years after it woke you up. Ears perked, sapphire eyes still dull with sleep, but as she hesitated her mind kicked back into full gear. They'd said he died, lost somewhere among the flames. And yet part of her never believed it. Crow was not the kind of wolf to just roll over and die. He would have crawled out of the flames with them still on his back, walking away as if he didn't feel the burns scoring his flesh, fur falling like ugly ash in his wake. No ... he never struck her as the kind to be burdened by death and despair.

Virra wants to turn, wants to walk away and pretend she did not know. And yet it was her job to see him - to see where he had been. That call would undoubtedly call others to him, and so perhaps his focus would not be on her. Though she had grown out of the initial gut reaction of running away when she saw his dark shadow, Virra still felt her stomach twist with dread at the very idea of him. How was it a wolf she hardly understood could cause her so much raw fear by thought alone? Maybe she understood him better than either of them thought. Paws moved of their own accord, taking her towards where he would be waiting, regulating her breathing so she would be calm when joining whomever had come before her.

She arrived on the scene silently, feeling out of place among the meeting of Goddesses, eyes falling instantly on the small figure by Crow. Ana was there; always flashing that grin that would be genuine on anyone else but her, lips and eyes not quite matching and giving the Captain an unsettling feeling. Ever since her demands Virra was anxious to see what else the godling would ask of her, how far she would be willing to push the bendable girl before Virra snapped and was unable to pick up the pieces. And then Canaan; there was little to think about, of all three Virra felt more at ease with this one, and yet there was still a sense of danger that made her weary of saying the wrong thing.

"Are you hurt ...?" She blinked, looking at Crow as if she could read the answer on his face without him speaking. Though her voice was even and friendly it was quieter than it could have been, reminding her grudgingly that she wouldn't ever fit in with these people. These wolves who had the power to rip someone down to size with words and fangs. Maybe if she were crueler she could do the former, but her weak resolve for violence made the latter absolutely impossible. "Welcome home." Said this time with more confidence, looking back at the Rosas. "Good ah ... morning," was it morning, was it evening, did she say the right thing?

Eyes settled finally on the child and she moved closer, noticing the twisted grin spreading on Canaan's face. Her instinct was to protect, to drag the boy away from the dangers. All three of them - not even his father could give him the protection she could. Shakily she motioned for him to come over, drawing closer to meet him half way, remaining a distance from Crow. She couldn't deal with his fangs in her throat today, not with the kid here. Some other day, she resolved, giving the boy a more genuine smile, full of nerves. "H-here," she coaxed, nuzzling him on his head if and when he wandered to her, "you are home, now. We will take care of you here."

I. I will make sure you survive.
Quote:The grey stained raven wolf lay on the outskirts of the maze, gazing expectantly into the thicket of trees. Her instinctive urge to switch into watch dog mode kept her alert, back legs crouched and her front toes spread to help pads spring up in a moment.

When the howl finally would come, reverberating off the trees echoing from well within, she jumped into immediate action. Ink sprang up within an instance and bolted into the maze, sliding along the moist forest floor, diving underneath the gnarled heavy boughs as she ran to answer his call.

She was not the first to arrive, and she pressed her ears flat against her skull for a brief moment. Ink felt the familiar painful twist in her stomach. The back of her neck was growing hot and she raised her hackles half way. She flicked her ears back up and stepped with purpose from the maze, tail raised high enough to say she was of high rank, but not higher than an alpha's raised tail. And there were a couple of Gods present, the white rose, with an eager look on her face; she was hungry for chaos.

But despite there being Gods present, she would stride past them and approach Crow, a wicked grin on her vicious mouth.

"It's about damn time," her cruel voice chided.

The assassin would walk toward her true bond, and attempt to latch her teeth onto his lip. Crow would not have appreciated anything too affectionate. Ink would pull back, her tongue tracing the bottoms of her teeth, feeling each sharp tip. Her eyes dropped beneath Crow, spotting the small morsel settled beneath his underbelly. Ink would think nothing of the child, for a moment.

It was only after she would turn from Crow and the child, although she didn't stray far from Crow's side. Captain Ni would nod to each Ana and Canaan, but would not address them with words, suddenly distracted by the Captain Iti coaxing the small child from beneath Crow to what Virra perceived to be 'protective' care.

Ink sneered at the brown mottled female crossing in front of the child to stop it from approaching the other Captain. If she was slow to reach the child, she would attempt to catch the child by it's scruff or tail and would take him back to Crow.

"We are well equipped to care for this child, Iti," she gave Virra a short snarl then smirk would rest easily onto her maw.

She turned back to Crow and, should he object her choice to stop the Captain Iti from poisoning the child then she would challenge him with glowering gaze. But if he approved she would give her tail a lavish flick. Ink was drawn back with curiousity tugging at her lips, desperately wanting to ask 'what happened', but she kept her mouth shut and would wait for him to speak for himself without the hindrance of prying questions.
Quote:He would have welcomed that jin attack without surprise or offense. It might have been funny to drop the body at Anamalech's feet and tell her solemnly that this unfortunate soul had clearly gone rogue, but don't worry, I took care of it for you! Or maybe they would manage to kill him instead... that would have had a gruesome poetry to it, the new flavor-of-the-week deity felling him just as he'd felled her kind in the past, just as he'd considered turning a mob on Enix as she returned this very same way.

How alike these two were at the crossroads. Childish wants, childish needs. Savagery. Selfishness. Unpredictability. Yet the one crucial difference was that Anamalech was so very untested. So very alone. Even as she vowed to inflict upon Crow a fate worse than poor ickle Lazaret's should he threaten her new rule. Even as she faced the possibility of being forced here and now to back that hilarious little promise up. With what, exactly? Her crippled slave? Her pregnant priestess? Her own yearling fangs?

Settle down, baby girl. Don't embarrass yourself. Let's talk friendship instead, shall we?

He smiled back, a truly sharkish expression, and pushed the prize he'd brought (the other prize mind you, not the live one lurking nearby) toward Ana. There was no gentler way to describe it: it was a human arm, severed somewhere at the humerus, mostly bone at this point, some of the phalanges broken off but otherwise in decent condition. One might wonder how Crow got hold of this, but the answer was rather unglamorous: it had only been scraps scavenged from some Alteronian lunch table.

"I meant it to be for your father," explained he, with an odd, unsettling cheer in his inflection. He'd called for Grendel, she had shown up in his place... it wasn't hard to connect the dots. "He liked bones, you know. They don't do anything for me. But these ones, they're a little interesting to look at, aren't they?"

Canaan arrived next, and oh, didn't someone seem dangerously excited? Blue eyes burned into him, his own seared right back; in the end maybe he knew that she knew. Let it be a private secret shared between he and this obsessive maiden who looked so very much like a wolf he'd used to call mother. Never looking away, he leaned down to nuzzle the spotted cub, roughly and possessively, smearing little Zeph with his acrid scent.

"Chinensis! Ah, it's good to be home." He humored her dutifully -- it was only proper, after all, given the special responsibility he had over her now. Deftly he moved from his son, regarding him with a flick of his snout. "This is Zephaniah. I usually kill whatever I find outside. I thought this time I might do some teaching instead."

Lo and behold, it looked like someone else had a similar idea. Here came a gentle flower amidst all these unbalanced barbarians, doe-eyed little Virra, who Crow looked upon with a strange predatory tenderness. I can't decide if I want to protect you or eat you, said that look. His smile widened at her concern and broke into a quiet laugh as she tried to claim the child... but he allowed it in the time it took for his true bond, his favorite bond, to enter the scene. He accepted the taunt, accepted the chomp even, moved his own muzzle as she drew back to inflict his own (harmless) bite at her throat. It was just their way.

"I'm terribly late," he crooned, playfully apologetic, to Ink. But she looked so hungry for something (hopefully not Zephaniah, who might at this point have been in her mouth...) and he supposed it was time for some kind of explanation.

"I was shown a gift," he told them all, turning a shoulder to the gathering, so they might see the gruesome burn scars along his back. "It did hurt, at first. Now... I don't feel much of anything there." Another laugh, as if that was somehow funny.

"Twice now this evil has tried to lay claim to me. And twice now I've come back from it. Look at what I've sacrificed! My eye, my skin! BUT NEVER MY FAITH!" He bared his teeth to the roots, pale gum exposed and eyes rolling from face to face. And was this acting? Playing the crowd, as Ana had put it?

"I leave godhood to my lovely granddaughter." For the little he found it had ever truly meant to him. "I ask only that I be left to defend and avenge this place. With all that I alone have gained. I -- the wolf the Red Dragon cannot kill!"
Quote:“….yes…” Canaan had whispered twice, and perhaps she was not just a rose, but a prophet for her premonitions about Zephaniah's future. When he saw her, when she answered him, his eyes widened in wicked glee. These wolves were powerful and beautiful and it had taken only moments for him to love them. He wanted to be like them. He bared his milk-teeth in a deviously charming snarl-smile. Still though, he stayed. Crow had told him to stay. Obedient, this child was. Not out of fear but out of a distorted love.

“Welcome home...brother.” With little tears along her pretty face.“We missed you so much.”

They loved and respected his father. He knew because they bothered to tread cautiously around the black monster that the child so loved. Zephaniah knew that he would strive to never embarrass Crow in front of these leaders. He would fight to honor those who deserved honoring. He lowered his ears and head for a moment in submission to their words and teeth and beauty. Gods, then, they were, the wolves who stood around him like pillars with their long adult legs and long adult words.

And then another female approached. "Are you hurt ...?" She asked naively. Being hurt did not matter, Crow was alive and ferocious as ever, he was still here and he did not need this stranger's pity. "Welcome home." And eventually the polite girl's innocent gaze would come to rest on the child. She offered him a nervous and almost forced smile, awkward and protective and even foolish. "H-here," She gestured, promising cuddles and warmth. "you are home, now. We will take care of you here."

Zephaniah looked at the girl critically. He had no desire for her tenderness, and Crow had told him in no uncertain terms to Stay. He stared at her with cold gray eyes, wrinkling his nose in disgust. Was she implying that he needed their care? Was she implying in front of all present that he and Crow were weak? There was no room for weakness, and he wouldn't indulge in the notion of it. Wolves shouldn't be weak.

He'd survive without coddling.

It was evidence of Crow's character perhaps, that all who came to greet him were beautiful women, and so Zephaniah was not surprised when Ink approached. The child was still too young to make good value judgements, and so was not surprised or offended when Ink's teeth met his father's face. He would remember this, the impressionable mind learning about affection by watching the adults play their games. "It's about damn time," She said, and then, after Virra had spoken, "We are well equipped to care for this child, Iti,"

Was this black wolf then taking the role of a second caregiver? Zephaniah eyed her darkly, not yet sure where she fell into this new and exciting hierarchy. He'd find out later. No one could, however, intrude upon his father's role. Like a lost gosling, he had bound himself to the shadow of the first thing he saw, and that force was stronger than any other. Crow was that shadow.

There were politics here, and Zephaniah listened and learned with sharp, upturned ears not unlike his father's. Anamelach had offered her polite and exciting threat, but Zephaniah had never doubted that his father knew what he was doing.

"I meant it to be for your father," Crow explained. "He liked bones, you know. They don't do anything for me. But these ones, they're a little interesting to look at, aren't they?"

Zephaniah had no interest in bones, no, he was interested in people and their debts and goals and places, in their souls. And no matter what Ana thought, souls were not so malleable. They were tough like leather. If a piece didn't bend where it should bend, you had to either soften it by force or throw it away. Pick your battles carefully, and your soldiers more carefully. The child didn't know anything about the gods, not yet, but he knew that they could fight, and while the battle would be beautiful, would it be worth it? One day it would, but not now. There was still much to be done!

Crow leaned to touch the precious child roughly, claiming him, and Zeph responded with an affectionate nip (Perhaps following Ink's lead) and a sharp turn of gaze to each of the women before them. If you were only as good as the superior that claimed you, then this was an honor. Zephaniah still stayed where he was, even after nearly being knocked over by his father's gesturing.

"Chinensis! Ah, it's good to be home." He said cheerfully. The child learned their names and titles with every new word that was spoken. He was bright eyed and quite literally bushy tailed, so obviously pleased at all of this, at the attention his father was warranting, at being in this place. "This is Zephaniah. I usually kill whatever I find outside. I thought this time I might do some teaching instead."

"I was shown a gift," Zephaniah had only known Crow with the ugly scars. The fire that had caused those wounds had lead to Zephaniah's creation. They were all born out of pain, some way or another. The pain their parents survived. "It did hurt, at first. Now... I don't feel much of anything there." Pain made you stronger. Pain made you more resistant.

"Twice now this evil has tried to lay claim to me. And twice now I've come back from it. Look at what I've sacrificed! My eye, my skin! BUT NEVER MY FAITH!" Zephaniah turned to watch his father. Crow may have been playing a part, acting to support his own strange goals, but Zephaniah stared at him with a dangerous admiration. The child mimicked his father's expression, pulling his lips to bare his teeth once again, feeling the compulsion to lift his muzzle skyward as he did so. Faith such a loaded word, a useful word. It gave him a chill. This was all exciting. This meeting, these people.

"I leave godhood to my lovely granddaughter." Godhood. "I ask only that I be left to defend and avenge this place. With all that I alone have gained. I -- the wolf the Red Dragon cannot kill!"

Had Zephaniah known the truth, known that it had only been the whim of Azuhel's mercy that had spared the yellow-footed wolf from the inevitability of death for some little while, then he might have avoided building a world-view on so fragile a notion as Crow's greatness. But Zephaniah was an impressionable child, fed the ideals of power and violence and lies. Virra, oh foolish hopeful kindness, you were far, far too late. The damage here had already been done.

What a beautiful pantheon this was - three beautiful roses, a dragon, and a smart, black bird perched atop the lot of them while everything outside this place was set aflame.
Quote:Grandfather and granddaughter plotted against one another with disconcerting enthusiasm, Anamelech's calculating and sinister brain ticking methodically behind her deceptively angelic smile. She was all sunshine and rainbows as she exalted her grandfather, but the sugar was too sticky, the sickening sweetness rotted. Anamelech was not like most little girls in that while most little girls loved their mommies and daddies, Ana could swear allegiance to her family in one instant, then in the next sentence just as easily forsake them. If it was Aglacea that returned to her instead of Crow, she would be just as readily planning his demise, all while insisting that she loved him. Maybe there was a kernel of sentimentality dwelling underneath all the sugar, like a beating heart persisting. Maybe her promises of unfaltering adoration weren't just lies.

Maybe.

No doubt, Grendel would be concocting just as many contingencies in preparation for the inevitable moment his rebellious daughter threatened his authority. Such was their relationship. How proud Daddy would be of his little girl, the tiny devil he left on the throne.

And her throne she would protect. It was hers. This was what was written. This was her story, and he was nothing but a minor antagonist.

As the two exchanged superficial pleasantries, Ana finally took notice of the little cherub smiling at her from beside his escort, and lowered her head to greet him. Oh, so Crow had brought a little snack with him. How delightful. The family resemblance wasn't immediately apparent; for all Anamelech knew, Crow had just delivered an unrelated convert straight to the Valley's doorstep. For me, Grandfather? How thoughtful of you.

Crow did come bearing gifts, but it wasn't the boy. He reached with one paw behind him and pushed an object previously unseen toward her. It was flesh; the rotting remains of an appendage that once belonged to some unknown creature. Others would have called them humans. She knew nothing of humans, their fire, or their curious and delightful little trinkets beyond the fact that she wanted them, perhaps only for the fact that they were different. She blinked, curiously dissecting the slab of flesh like it was a present to be unwrapped, turning the arm over on its side. A sliver of white bone protruded from the decomposing muscle. The strange, articulated joints (toes?) attached to the end of the arm (its... paw?) were curled like the legs of a dead insect. Any other queen would have refused this macabre gift and cast it back into Crow's loathsome maw, but Ana wasn't like most queens. Ana wasn't like most little girls.

Captain Ni and Captain Iti had arrived. Ana was too transfixed with her present to pay them any mind. Ink slipped past her and curled around Crow like she was his shadow. The two bickered over the child in Crow's possession, but it was only background noise. Ana only looked up when she heard Big Sister's voice as a reverent whisper, choked with emotion. She greeted Crow like he was a long-lost friend. For the first time in possibly her entire life, Ana was quite honestly perplexed, although outwardly she never showed it. Canaan wasn't emotional. She didn't cry.

Stony-faced, Ana watched as her grandfather went into motion, sweeping the dismembered arm closer to her as an afterthought. Sinewy muscles rippled beneath the layers of scar tissue that mangled his back. Crow whirled about like a lean and ragged specter and howled his devotion for Oukoku-Kai at the top of his lungs, releasing a great zealous battle cry. He entrusted her with the throne in a flattery-laden declaration: I leave godhood to my lovely granddaughter. Godhood was hers. That was the only part of his little harangue that mattered.

Like that - a liability was now a potential tool. How fortuitous.

Of course, Ana would still keep her cards clutched to her chest. Crow wasn't one to be trifled with. She smiled to him, almost wordlessly saying, Of course you are. When she spoke, she instead opted for praise. Keep the beast docile, keep him compliant; trade meaningless compliments while the pieces fell into place. "Oukoku-Kai has been lost without its most devoted follower.

"We've missed you so much."
Quote:Crow’s return had become a welcoming party filled with the faces of his most intimate of familiars. From the clumps of their fanatical society emerged two more, both Captain’s drawn to the lure of the god-slayer and his fresh bundle. In some idle part of her mind, some place in her twisted mentality that was not consumed by her hungers, by her longing, by the heat of the fury that simmered in her belly, she acknowledged their arrival. Yet her gaze never moved from Crow, from the beast Mother had spoken of, from the creature that had not be torn asunder by Azuhel’s teeth and claw… and the child that Virra seemed to nervously attempt to coax from the side of the monster it had come with.

Though, such a creature needed no salvation, it was already damned in the presence of its caretaker and Ink was efficient in her reminder that Crow’s house of beasts could care for the sack of wide-eyed flesh and blood. Though ultimately, Canaan knew it was anything but some innocent eager soon-to-be worshipper… and she let the knowledge of such flood her gaze as she moved it to Crow and met his own.

Perhaps, when the dust was settled and his return was not the talk of a frightened estate they could smile wicked smiles underneath the blanket of twinkling stars while exchanging secrets of fire and—

Humans.

Crow, in his journey, had procured some human limb. It was nothing unknown for the child, whose travels beyond the prison she ruled with casual smile and grace were yet revealed mysteries and often remembered agonies. Her reaction was not explosive however and her belly neither churned nor rumbled for the flesh. She was impartial to the gift and understood that, beneath those new bones, had been bred a carefully constructed bribe for favor. Was Crow a simple male of gifts and humble attitude?

No, she doubted such.

Still, such thoughts of politics—whether the limbs intention was such or not—fled in the wake of Crow’s greeting and as if she hadn’t wept in her earlier confused emotional reaction she gave a tilt of head and heavy smile—“We’ve kept your den warm, Mother and I.” Hypothetically speaking. Enix had seemed stricken by the disappearance of Grendel and Crow and had taken to following their scents in several different locations in hopes of finding them again. “And Zephaniah, is it?

She approached the small collection, Crow, Ink, and the child without fear of being turned away and the confidence of the god she mimicked with glee and regality. They would welcome her, they would accept her—her authority demanded nothing less. Of course, once and if Canaan was close enough she’d settle down on her rump and give broad motherly smile, one learned and copied and perfectly emulated from a beast none of them had ever seen….

Except for, those two that had, of course.

My name is Chinensis.” In a roundabout way, “Though, you may call me ‘sister’.

Because, in a way, they were linked.

That was when Crow made his proclamation, his relinquishment of the throne and his new request while he screamed his faith to the slumbering skies above them.

And naturally, in reply—“Absolutely! You’re precious and irreplaceable. Gigantea and I, Chinensis, welcome you home and bless you for your bravery and cunnings.

Then a pause—

You belong to Oukoku, after all. And it is not yet done with you, Indestructible Warrior.
Quote: As if she had expected anything else, her attempt to draw the child away from Crow had failed. Virra visibly shrank back a tiny bit as Ink approached, getting between her and the child, who had not moved, and blinked. Zephaniah's eyes were cold and glaring, causing Virra to realize almost instantaneously that there was no hope of showing him tenderness. Like his father, he would not accept it. Appearing as relaxed as possible, she simply nodded and closed her eyes. "Of course, I'm sorry to imply otherwise." Lids opened and neutral sapphire irises landed on Zephaniah once more, "You have so many to take care of you, Oukoku-Kai will be home in no time at all."

Silently, shamefully, she strode towards Canaan's direction and remained there. Detaching herself from the conversation, she listened idly to their chatter. Eyes wandered from face to face, following each voice. The only one she did not look at for more than a second was Crow, not out of fear, but silent frustration at him. All of his children - all of them - had the same twisted lack of tenderness. He couldn't have let one of them have a heart built for more than obedience and darkness? Tail swayed behind her, a subtle little flick from right to left, an anxious twitch that wouldn't resolve itself anytime soon.

"I was shown a gift. It did hurt, at first. Now... I don't feel much of anything there. Twice now this evil has tried to lay claim to me. And twice now I've come back from it. Look at what I've sacrificed! My eye, my skin! BUT NEVER MY FAITH!"

Her eyes had widened on the ugly scars of the burns on his shoulder, swallowing hard. Fire, the flick of her tail increased and her stomach knotted. They'd all seen it, around the time that Crow had vanished and a figure in the distance had carried with them the burning energy. Toes long healed from burns and cuts ached, a phantom memory of the flames licking at her heels as she tried furiously to stamp them out. Sympathy lined her brows, pulling them closer to the middle before relaxing, deep blue eyes never leaving the single yellow. She felt sorry for him. For all his cruelty and wickedness, she couldn't imagine being put through the burns now branded into his skin - and for that she truly pitied his struggle.

"I leave godhood to my lovely granddaughter. I ask only that I be left to defend and avenge this place. With all that I alone have gained. I -- the wolf the Red Dragon cannot kill!"

His theatrics had not graced her like it did the others, questionable faith aside. There was something that bothered her, something that made her clear her throat softly after Ana and Canaan spoke. "Will she come back?" Confidence had surged her voice to be louder, not mumbled, she found a way not to stutter through her speech. "The Red Dragon, she was the one with the fire? How should we defend this place if she comes back?"

Mind whirring, she looked from Crow to Canaan, choosing to ask directly the one she was under. "I'll offer up any help I can, lady Chinensis. I'd like to defend our home." Our home. How many times had she said that now and not meant it? How many times had she said it and did mean it?
Quote:It would be wrong to say that what Ana had so lovingly dubbed a "harangue" had been purely theatrical in nature, the overwrought play of an actor good at feigning emotions he did not really feel. He was horrific in countless ways, but he was no glassy-eyed, empty-souled sociopath who did all that they did to fill some endless hole without ever once being affected by the mechanisms and products of these actions. Crow was fever, Crow was wildfire -- untamed, hazardous by nature, following the bacteria and the embers with which he'd over many years been disfigured.

He'd brought his granddaughter back a gift, because he had. He maimed and murdered and terrorized -- the gods and the mobs, the valleyborn and the infidels -- because he did. He allowed his young son's nipping little smooch, even deigned to lower his smiling maw for it... because. I am my own god, and it was no longer something he needed to prove like it once would have been; it simply was, unchallenged and indomitable. There was something so serene about his smile now and that was more terrifying than any snarl or sneer he'd ever made.

Indestructible Warrior, indeed.

"I want to see her," he crooned when the praise subsided, a sliver of something eerily sentimental threading into his voice. "It's been so long since I spoke with Heaven... I'm afraid I was... a little disagreeable last time we met." She'd crept up upon him in his den, mistaking him for Grendel, and he'd rewarded the woman who'd half-raised him with a ripping growl for startling him, never once considering that this could have wounded her as deeply as it did. Enix was the old White, an unstoppable monster. Surely she didn't feel that kind of pain. "Lead the way, my sister."

Then came Virra, sweet little Virra, whose voice he really did like, as cats enjoy the plaintive squeaking of mice. "Oh yes," purred Crow, too fond, too detached as he spoke of the devil-figure who'd burned him nearly to death. "She used the fire to weaken the gate between us and the horrors outside. To frighten us." He broke from Zephaniah (who presumably toddled after them) to hover intimately over her, his open jaws momentarily close to her cheek. "Are you frightened?"

A laugh -- apparently that was meant to be a joke -- as he withdrew. "I'll lead the attack myself, if she comes back. We'll be ready."

Crow could have told them exactly where Azuhel was, if he'd wanted to. Could have assembled a jin party with Ink with intent to fetch a head that would be crudely buried (read: thrown into the tar) with Antimache's. Could have said so much more than he was saying now. But the truth was, well --

-- he was no longer sure which side of that attack he'd be on.

Time would tell.

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  Dragon Lessons [ARCHIVE]
Posted by: Crow - October 31, 2017, 01:38:59 AM - No Replies

Quote:[[This thread takes place a few miles out from Alteron, I’m posting it in this board but we’re not in the territory just looking over it.]]


The ominous rumble of her laughter was the announcement of their arrival. Here, among the outskirts of the land she ruled under false king was where she wished to conduct a meeting of minds more alike than her unwilling guest might have realized. It was upon a hill that she’d dumped his body, half-healed and ruined, while she looked over toward the rotting jungle that had held her prisoner for what seemed like many an endless moon. She was no longer prisoner of course but lawmaker, an opportunist of the highest degree, bound to the worthless patch of land by blood and prestige.

What a tiresome responsibility.

Though she hadn’t brought her charge there to return to the place of hot swamp earth and agony. No, she was still on vacation, roaming in search of her son—to praise, to touch, to realize their purpose. She would return to Alteron, but not just yet, not until her duties beyond the festering cluster of corruption was complete and she could feel accomplished when she put back on her mantle of authority.

Until then she was certain those she’d left behind could handle the delegation of powers within.

In the meantime there were lessons to teach and wolves to oppress and she’d start with the important beast she hadn’t roasted over open fires. It was because he was a piece of the beast that had stolen her respect and despite the affiliations and stench he carried he was still useful. She wouldn’t destroy something so precious—

Not yet.

She sat at his side, meat before them—still fresh from when she’d left to acquire it—stripped and ready but she didn’t touch it. It was for the weakened boy, whose mind she wished to twist until his mouth spewed words more akin to her liking. He’d learn many things on their journey together and at the end she’d test him on the ability to retain his lessons.

Whether that was with freedom or teeth would be decided by him.

Crow.” She spoke, aware of his name and all the precious power he thought he held in a land of fanatical idiots.

Get up.
Quote:All this time, all these years, and this place still smelled like the bowels of some titanic cadaver bloating and bursting and breaking down. It prickled every last razor-velvet guard hair on his nape, moistened the interior of his pale mouth, as unceremoniously his wounded body was abandoned to lie prone upon the ground, his captor moving to stand dominantly over her vulnerable black foe-familiar.

(weak helpless NO this wasn't NO supposed to NO ever happen again no no NO NO NO)

He'd fought her, of course. That was all Crow knew how to do, that was all he would ever do, this glorified spiteful wreck of a creature with eyes glazed feverishly (they never left her, not for a heartbeat) with some virulent illness backed into a corner. But the blisters on his back, shiny white and wet-looking partial thickness burns, bared gruesomely for all to see until the scorched fur grew back, could barely accept a strong breeze without the wolf who wore them fighting the urge to scream or vomit or both. Maybe he'd stopped, after the first time he felt teeth in them. Maybe it had taken several times.

So now, he only crooned a growl at Azuhel instead as she moved to sit beside him. Not that a word like "only" did justice to the high, horrible, murderous sound gurgling in his throat, a threat and a promise and a full-body rage that rippled over his skin in a physical tremor. The meat she appeared to be offering him went outright ignored in this defiance's favor, pointless as it was. He had nothing else.

(take me hostage you bitch I'll take that eye I'll take your LIFE)

It was only the sound of his name in her mouth, the name Katana had given him so long ago as she pushed him protectively against her belly, that invoked any other response, his voice heavy and hoarse and savage.

"Zero." An unforgiving snap of a correction. [I]"My name is Zero." His paws moved, nails out and carving lines in the earth as he worked gingerly to drag himself into an upright position. Not for her, never for her, but because he was Crow, killer of gods, terror of the valley, angel of the one true Order --

and HE WOULD NOT FACE ANYONE, red dragon or no, flopped over like a hamstrung fawn.
Quote:“[i]Mmm…” A soft moan, melodious and smooth. It was sincere and nearly passionate, misplaced among the scene the dragon shared with angry prisoner, but it croaked past her throat none the less at the sound of his hatred, at the savage revoking of his name, at his agony hidden behind the thick veil of such negative emotion.

Exquisite.

Zero.” She corrected nonetheless, southern accent lacking the harsh bite it normally carried when she talked among the oppressors and otherwise worthless scum who held no business discovering the depth of her true nature. However, for Crow she would reveal, she would give so much more than he had to take and in return she’d attempt to take much more than he could give. Already she’d made sure to snatch away his strength, but he was not yet dependent…

How much longer would that take, per say…?

Still, she found his position laughable, his denial of her meat—whether it came from her or elsewhere—a fools attempt at resistance. Using her mercy could have made him stronger, healed him faster, and her demise at his teeth and claw would have been her fault at the end of the day. Wasn’t that how the youth took their victories? Standing on the tails of their betters, stealing power from the shadows of their elders? It’d been a long time since she’d rolled under the sun of paradise but the methods used to control and dominate should not have changed so drastically that the most Crow could do was sit at her side and snarl.

Granted, Azuhel had made sure that was all he could do for sometime.

Once upon a time, as you are well aware, you lived among the wrenches of this place with the sort of arrogance children of your father are often afforded.”Azuhel opened, her husky tone smooth and factual, her accent like a lulling purr among the sterile apathetic chill of her tone, an odd mixture to be sure.

Then they wanted you dead and your father did nothing.” Much to proud, perhaps, or too tightly wound around the finger of royal blood and order. He’d always been a man of command, giving and following order with the pride of the absolutely obedient. A perfect model among older Alteron citizens that could still remember when Rapier ruled without discrimination between who she ruined or elevated.

They still would, maybe, if Rapier wasn’t dead at the moment.” Still… a gentle sigh then before she rolled her shoulders—

This day is not about Alteron, however. It’s about your existence. About why you might still be alive—it’s twice now, in my presence, that you’ve alluded death. Once because you took the reins and twice because I loved your mother.

And to kill him would have been a waste.

Zero,” She opened again, with quirked brow and saliva slick teeth on display in a smile most perverse. The hunger that flashed in the gaze of that one functioning eye was nearly physical in the pressure of need that rolled from her. That tense body posture, the twitch of her hooked claws, the crinkle of her muzzle in mischievous sadism… She wanted to kill him. Would, certainly could in the state his body was in, if she was given the excuse to do so. She’d joyously devour him without much thought or preamble, as was her nature, and her belly rumbled despite being in the presence of the slain meat she’d brought for him.

His meat would have been so much sweeter, his pride the wine that washed it down.

Zero, would you believe Auntie Dragon, iffin she told yah that your existence was a lie?
Quote:One leg under him, and another, and there he went, pushed into a stance that was almost sphinx-like if not for the feral, ignoble hunch of his spine. The pain even this simple motion caused him made him want to howl like something crazed and bite into his own flesh for betraying him. Yes, it would be foolish, like refusing the meat, like clinging onto his name, as though that gave him even an iota of power here. Blind rage had always been his worst flaw; Crow was very clever but nobody would ever call him wise.

He panted, shaking as he scanned the area wildly, eyes rolling to whites. Don't speak, a stauncher wolf of Oukoku-Kai might have commanded themselves. Not to this unholy traitor to the Free People. And yet he as Azuhel talked, sans any of her usual jolliness -- should he in a twisted way feel honored that she'd display her true self to him? -- the only coherent thought whirling around in his psyche was find a key. Something to escape from this. A word, if he had no other weapon available to him. He'd never die a martyr.

So Crow -- no, Zero -- listened to that southern twang. Heard a history he had not thought back to in years recited back to him. A terrible story about a boy who'd been born into riches and forsook them for rags. Here he was, generations later, in the shadow of these choices. After wives, after children and grandchildren, after using them as weapons and shields and mirrors.

"Where are they," was what he finally said, his voice hoarse with something raw and exhausted. Needed with a sudden and startling hunger to know. "My mother. My father. How do you know them."

They watched each other now. Like a hyena would watch a newborn gnu. He settled back into silence, his pupils pinprick and twitching, the spiny mane on his nape risen straight up, the long glimmering eyeteeth exposed. He understood her desire to destroy another animal so completely, to defile and devour them, even as it terrified him, or the part of him that was always there beneath every single act of violence and cruelty, to see it turned on him now when he could not fend it away. Maybe that was as close to empathy as he'd ever get.

"I serve a higher purpose now," he hissed. "They were something to surpass. If I'd stayed, if I'd had their lives --" He cut himself off, almost choking on the words, working himself up into a froth, then maybe I'd already have cut my throat and let you chow down, that's what I would deserve, that's what they all had coming, not me, nOT ME, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SUPERIOR --

"I took everything I have. They love me back there, some of them. But most of them are afraid of me." A grin then, leaking drool and wrath. Feared right alongside malevolent gods and forces of nature. Was there a higher testament to his terror? "That's no lie."
Quote:[There was no immediate answer from the dragon, who allowed the silence to stretch—swollen and oppressive—after Crow had expressed his questions tinged with the madness he’d developed due to his twisted look upon reality. In that moment she saw herself, a twisted frightened visage, proud but metaphorically burned… abandoned and desperate for the power that she’d been disillusioned into believing was [i]real. Power, in itself, was not real. Strength was just an assistant, health a grand aspect of living among the monsters, but power… meaningless against the backdrop of intimidation and carefully planned schemes. Timing, senselessness… these were the aspects that had brought her her name and flung her from her family. After that, throughout her continued life, power had granted her nothing but meals in her belly and scars across her face. No, it was charismatic finesse that brought out success, chewing on the power others claimed to possess then twisting it around until you could wear the veil of authority just as proudly.

How much of that had Crow done in Oukoku-kai. How much of anything had he done that he could not in Alteron? While she thrived on the curtails of his father until she’d swept out from under him to blaze her own path of selfish control… had he done the same?

The idea of it was consuming, an overwhelming sense of pride that Dark would not have felt for the boy had he been in her place. She smiled that wicked smile, perverse and true while an unnaturally giddiness swept through her, pushing and prodding at her overall need to strike Crow down and force him to rebuild his virtues from the ground up underneath her watchful probing eye.

She’d already begun the process, hadn’t she? Yet she needed more time to break a lunatic, time she didn’t have considering there were far grander ideals yet put into motion on her full agenda of dreams to break.

She’d instead settle for what she could tear from him and replace and she had many great ideas of what she wanted to replace.

Gone.’ She finally answered, head titled and ears set to twitch as she found an odd sense of loss within her, a sense that she was quickly able to squash as soon as it had arrived, strangling the sense of need within her and twisting it into ambition. “Dark was here for some time, he helped rebuild this place after it was ravaged, but he too left. Your mother was gone long long before that and I think she was the only one who mourned when you disappeared.

No one else did, no one else ever would. He was as forgotten as any of them could be once they stepped past the hell that had encased them. Even now one had to wonder how Oukoku would react to Crow’s passing. Still she wouldn’t twist her stare away from him, let him know her hunger and wonder when she’d allow it to consume her. Let him realize that she too, would perhaps forget when this meeting was done—forget to show mercy, forget to call him Zero, forget…

No, Azuhel would never forget him—she hadn’t even now—and that was perhaps the issue at hand.

Though really, it was his fanatical spewing that had her most interested. He believed he served a higher purpose? That his family was something to surpass? All of this was true—so much more than fact for him, to be sure—but he was not superior. Not to her.

It was time for part one—

Oh I’ve no doubt they love yah. Worship yah even, dependin’ on how high you are. Child, you sound so very high.” Though she laughed softly, as if she found the idea of their entire cycle of rebirth and destruction ridiculous—“But they used to love me too, before they feared me. You know, they will always be more afraid of me and you…

And that wasn’t a lie.

I’ve walked their sands and played their games. I’ve slept in the den of the white and toyed with the sensibilities of red. Yet, it was yellow who caused their destruction, proud and arrogant and seemingly indestructible.

Here she sighed.

That’s the problem with godlings, they think they can’t be killed. You see, I’ve killed a lot, I’ve brought destruction from mountain to shore and it doesn’t take much to do it again. ” She looked at him coyly, a mask to be sure, with soft shy tilt of head while her gaze burned with the absolute pleasure and excitement she felt from just recalling the deaths of dozerns—“I burned them down to ash the first time, you know? They saw my shape among the clouds and now I’m the beast they curse during prayers. I am so much more than this generations Red Dragon. I am THEE rEd draGON!

She gave off a joyous laugh, as if they were speaking of things less chilling, less horrific and maddening. “They all screamed out when their flesh was burned, much like you, so so MUCH like you. Yet when all was said and done only a collection of them were left. There were so many bones, so much meat and smoke.

Saliva slipped from her maw at the recollection, of the bounty she’d given them, of the gifts they didn’t take. She’d given them so much but they’d refused her.

I ruined their paradise and twisted up their ideals. They screamed and fled among their dead without so much as a snapping jaw. I’d become their heaven, they’d live in my hell…

And yet…

Alas, good ol’ Enix took them away and I couldn’t find them again until Tibet. I hadn’t known you’d all come back to the same damn spot, and look at it! That territory looks all the better for it, the earth loves blood, my precious Zero, and I’m sure you and your pack had fed it plenty. Even from my hill it looked vibrant so I wanted to give you something, the gift of my glorious fire again.

It hadn’t gone the same way she’d wanted though, they’d put it out eventually, before it had managed to steal life.

I stopped when I saw you, that’s why we’re talkin’, you know. I hadn’t expected you to be there, and so brave too! So very brave.” swept away in meaningless ideals, brave for no one but his ego. An ego that meant nothing to the dragon who held him captive.

You are not the only Oukoku wolf I’ve seen in so many moons, just one of the few I haven’t killed yet. Tell me, I once saw a pretty pretty fellow out here. He was looking for someone, his… daughter? He told me he was a higher being, a god, a red god to be exact.

Here she paused again, if only so that she could whisper in a tone more soothing than sadistic, a gentle lullaby meant to infect Crow’s dreams with visions of twisted agony and delirious horror.

I sent him off to this land I knew about, just a small patch of maggots and earth and while he searched and cried I brought him my gift to assist—

A soft breath, a bit of panting as her heart pounded against her chest and clawed digits clutched at the earth—

He burned so well, Zero. He burned like all gods do before my gift and I watched the hope die in his eyes while his fur and flesh curled up and peeled from his body. I thought he could handle my gift, but all he did was whine and scream, like so many others before him. But you, Zero—

Crow, precious Crow.

Crow. I have many gifts, one of which you survived. So, it is time to teach you many more…

Slowly, if Crow hadn’t jerked away she’d reveal her tongue to swiftly draw across his cheek, to caress his scars and imperfections as she cooed obsessively about his greatness.

You will take them back to the Valley, you will protect my other Gift, and hopefully you will not die during our lessons.

Perfect baby boy.
Quote:He'd always known the beginnings of her control, had always felt its taste on the tip of his pale tongue, but in the end had proven too wild, too impulsive to use it masterfully, like a firekeeper who burned himself for all he did to others. And despite his untouchable lawlessness, he'd still always been under the paw of someone else in the end, hadn't he? Dancing to their songs, pulling at their leashes, a parasite and an attack dog who bungled murders and took the failures out on helpless bystanders.

Child, she'd called him. Crow was no child, not even close. And yet that was not what Azuhel meant, was it? Child with more resemblance to her than even her biological ones, child who was another version of herself. You can't change the devilish into the devout. Not even if you give him a name like seour and convince him that someday he'll be one of the gods he watches vanish into the outside world or pushes screaming from her perch and into the awaiting mouths of righteous, raging zealots.

The burns on his back hurt ferociously. But perhaps Azuhel had saved him, though not in the way Oukoku-Kai understood saving, from himself and what he thought he wanted. Shown him the way out of the light rather than in. Light was so deceptive, like a flame to a moth, like the lure of an anglerfish.

Crow listened to her with an uncharacteristic silence. Felt the animal fear in his gut strangely enough start to ebb. Seraph, he realized, with neither surprise nor sympathy, before casting the name out of his selfish thoughts entirely. Was that why the cordial, brilliant, mortal former Chinensis had never returned? Azuhel was working herself into a gleeful fever pitch. She had not killed him yet -- did monsters know their own hatchlings? Did she know that were their positions reversed, he would be tearing into her belly right now? Why was she telling him all of this?

"So you're the dragon," said Crow at last, and unbelievably, he actually grinned, mirthless humor dripping from the cracks between his teeth. He did not mock her, the joke was not at her expense, made as much in admiration as in derision. "I thought you'd be bigger."

He licked his flinty muzzle in memory. "The priests came for me once," he told her, smiling tightly, dangerously. "They thought you had possessed me. They let you out through my eye." Which he winked at her, lid sliding over blank white wet orb.

"I skinned their leader for it and threw him into the tar. I knew he was wrong. That you were a story, or just another wolf who could be killed. But I've been holding my own private executions for years. We're... not... so... different."

He laughed, a high cold sound the direct opposite to Azuhel's low husky pitch, but there was a note of furious despondency in it, not a pathetic whiny mewl but a hoarse precursor to an avian shriek, and he seemed not to notice when she caressed his wounds.

"Show me your gifts," was his acquiescence and his challenge, "Red Dragon."

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  Galaxy of the lost [Avery x Eve]
Posted by: Avery! - October 31, 2017, 01:34:50 AM - No Replies

Quote:Her trek was slow and unsteady. How many days had it been since she had left the desert behind her, for the last time? Her jaw clenched, head throbbing painfully. She had only just returned to her home.. before it had been wrenched from her grasp once more, this time by an enemy Eve simply could not fight. She had sobbed and cried, attacking everything around her in her grief, her anger, her anguish. 

Eve had kept moving since then, since the sandstorm (the second one I've survived, she thought bitterly). It couldn't be said when it was that she had last slept, time blurring together into a muddy streak of colors and sounds. What had she done to deserve this constant pain? Had she been so terrible in her previous life that fate saw fit to torture her for her entire next one?

The scarred wolfdog shook her head, growling. There was no such thing as fate, no gods or devils. It was just nature, and she knew that. There were footsteps beside of her, familiar footsteps, a warm and welcoming scent like home flooding her senses.. "d... ad?" she forced out in a squeak, voice crackling and rough like stones grinding together. The mirage of her father was so real that it almost convinced her - almost. Eve ignored the wavering image of Firebound, his face just the way she remembered it, so lovingly handsome. A sigh escaped her and she began to run, slowly picking up speed until she was sprinting through the thick woods. 

Gemini's border was lost on her, panic seizing her as she neared and crossed it, streaking into Gemini's territory like a golden bullet. Where would she go? Who had survived the storm? Where had they gone? Why had her children left her? Why had EVERYONE LEFT HER?!

Her paws hit unsteady ground, mossy rocks that caused the wolfdog to trip and go flying down a small rocky hill to the gully below. Her body crashed into a large moss-coated boulder, head smacking against it.. and she felt a dazed stupor fall over her, accompanied with the feeling of rain beginning to patter down, and the sound of thunder in the distance.
Quote:( avery slo mo catches eve in her strong wolf arms while whitney houson wails in the bg )
Quote:Daybreak rolled in gray and foreboding, peals of wind growing harsh as the hours stretched out, heaving the trees of this thickly wooded hollow to and fro, their roots moving visibly beneath the earth like reanimated bodies struggling against their graves. The threat of a storm made Avery tense, prone to aimless pacing and lips that grew stiff around the concealed teeth, and though she never looked particularly unfriendly, passersby who didn't already have some kind of rapport with her... maybe they took a look at her today and crossed paths to give her a wide berth.

And maybe she murmured soft, encouraging reminders to herself as she took shelter in the center of an old willow. Maybe Hawthorne had offered them to her the next time she had to power through a spot of bad, bad weather. Go to the mountains, one could imagine him saying. When the rain gets too loud, imagine the red rock, the smell of ibex, how it felt to stand on a hill and see everything for miles. Some sweet and unspoiled memory she could rest in for a while.

Mostly asleep, she heard the crashing before she connected any important dots, and woke a bit violently, throwing her head up with a reflexive snap of jaws at nothing. Ears perked, head low, eyes adjusting, heart racing, the firebird stilled and waited. Listening. Preparing. I smell sand, she thought distantly, dryly. What the hell, ladies and gentlemen.

Out of the crevice, through the brush, paws impressing the soft earth, and her caution slowly gave way to disbelief, some foreign feeling she couldn't recognize as god damned agonizing hope welling up in her chest as she ran, she ran, she ran --

to her friend's side.

"Eve," she breathed down at the half-conscious golden lump, her voice husky with awe. "Eve. I'm -- are you okay? Eve?" Asking her again, repeating the name, as though she couldn't believe it was real, as though she had to be mistaken, or she was dreaming it up, or that it would be yanked away from her somehow, because that's how this worked, that was the script of her life, but --

Here she was. Eve alive. Eve here.

Avery knelt down, on her belly beside the wounded wolfdog. Laid her head across her neck in a rare show of tenderness that would almost certainly embarrass her later to look back on. It didn't matter right now.

"I looked for you," she pleaded softly. "I looked for months. I couldn't find you. They wouldn't help me, they just... I'm sorry, Eve."

I'm so sorry.
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Pain blossomed all over her body, throbbing head and paws and shoulders and chest - every part of her hurt. The wolfdog grimaced, but otherwise did not move, no energy left within her to do so. Eve felt rain pattering down on her soft gold and cream form, dampening her fur in select spots darkened by liquid. Was this it? Had she come so far, conquered so much, just to die.. here, in this ditch in some unknown territory, alone? In a way, Eve had expected as much - loneliness had become a part of her, the stony feeling like a gigantic, barren cave where echoes just never stopped. Echoes of the past, of her failures, of the fact that she was truly alone -- 

but she wasn't, was she? 

Her remaining eye fluttered open drunkenly, struggling to focus on the fire and coal colored creature moving towards her. The wolfdog growled in warning, mustering up the will to force out the sound accompanied by a slight crease in muzzle; it was a warning, broken mind unable to recognize who had approached, who was crawling into the gully with her, pressing against her with body instead of sinking teeth in. Eve gave pause, still growling weakly, still unable to understand.

"Eve. I'm -- are you okay? Eve?"

They knew her. They knew her and she couldn't remember, vision blurred and fading in and out, but slowly becoming steadier. "Wh.. who--" her voice cracked, unable to finish the question, throat burning and still pained from inhaling sand and grit during the sandstorm that had destroyed everything. Scarred nose inhaled deeply and it was like a light flashing in her mind, a black figure slowly fading to color, gaining detail, Eve gaining recognition of that scent, that voice -- "I looked for you, I looked for months. I couldn't find you. They wouldn't help me, they just... I'm sorry, Eve." What.. ? "A.. ver.. y?" Eve managed to croak out on hoarse, crackling voice, shock waves of disbelief running through her body like electric currents. Was it really her? Or was it just another mirage, a hopeful nothing? Single seaside eye looked up at the fiery woman, studying her features (what she could, anyway) before lifting her head as much as she could. This should have been a happy time.. she had thought that maybe, just maybe.. things would be okay if she found her old friend. 

But they weren't. 

"Avery.. " the collie fringe said, this time voice a little stronger but no less rough. Pressing into the other woman, Eve let a dry sob escape her. "It's gone.. all of it's gone," the valkyrie sputtered out, still not convinced that Avery was really there, really right there with her, but too out of it to truly care. "Are you.. is it really you?" Maybe not too tired to care after all - Eve raised her head to gaze through her single eye at the firebird, studying the face - feeling a burning anger rise in her stomach and chest at the sight of those goddamn red tattoos. Shredded ears fell back slightly as memories came flooding back, Eve pausing for only a moment before releasing those memories back into the world on a shaky sigh. 

Avery.. she was alive. All this time, Eve had never tried to look for her.. how long had she been in the desert since she had been traded for? Days, weeks.. ? The collie did not know. A shudder racked her body, the chill of rain and cool, powerful wind cutting straight through her feathery fur to the skin below - she was thin, thinner than she had been in even Saboro under the watchful eye of those demons. Not quite malnourished, but.. getting there, and fast. Avery had looked for her.. and Eve didn't even return the gesture after her freedom had been regained. What a joke she was, a terrible mother, a terrible leader, a terrible friend. Her heart ached, a dull pain that felt like her heart was too-cold, a thorn stuck directly in the middle shredding the walls of her brittle and broken heart with every beat. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Avery. I tried to get away, I wanted to be there for the pack, for my friends," for you, "I ruined everything and I am so, so sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," all but blubbering the words out on half-sobs, half-chokes as body became overwhelmed with emotion, saying the words over and over and over again and meaning it every single time. Maybe if she said those words enough, everything would go back to the way things were, before.

It thundered loudly, a crackling BOOM that shook her to her bones, vibrating in her marrow. She heard the creaking of tree limbs as they swayed in the wind, the rustling of bushes and leaves scattering themselves through the thick undergrowth.. and through it all, her eye remained on Avery, unable to look away out of fear that the firebird would disappear on the wind like sand dust sweeping over the crests of dunes. Eve wasn't willing to risk that. 

Eve couldn't lose her again.
Quote:The disoriented woman cried out softly; Avery tightened her protective grip.

"It's me," she was murmuring again and again, trying with this reassurance to coax Eve back to reality. Over and over, a shushing, a soothing, repeated as though even she the speaker needed convincing. "It's me. It's Avery. I'm here. You're safe now..."

Pitter patter far above her head, the beginnings of rain falling to break upon her broad back, cold little strikes the firebird didn't even notice. It was a mirrored image of a time long past... her wading into the oasis in a dissociative fugue at high noon and passing out. Eve had come to pull her out, to save her from drowning, maybe in more ways than just the one that involved her lungs trying to learn to breathe water. A fugitive terrified for her life, escaped chattel risking far worse than simple hobbling, no family and no friends and no home and no hope. Just the need, stronger than reason or judgment, to run until she couldn't see red anymore.

And here lay someone who'd shown her real kindness during that nightmare.

And here lay someone she would have forgiven in a heartbeat should she admit to Avery that she'd never tried to look for her friend, who had all the reason in the world to believe she'd led Eve's captors right to her, anyway. Given them the tools to forge her chains.

"Don't say sorry," breathed Avery roughly into gold fur, her voice sounding tight and choked. Maybe something was in her eye. She certainly was not fighting back tears. "It's my fault this happened, you didn't do anything wrong, just..."

A monstrous thunderclap shook the sky and made her jump, effectively cutting her off mid-sentence. Avery peered upward... then regretted it as the rain grew abruptly harsher, dumping water into her upturned face, soaking the twosome's coats and matting it to their hides as surely as Ave flinched away and failed to suppress a loud sneeze. Fuck off, nature, we're trying to have a moment down here.

"Let's get out of the rain. I'll carry you, okay?"
Quote:"It's me. It's me. It's Avery. I'm here. You're safe now..."

Eve buried her face in the dark crook of the woman's neck, inhaling the firebird's scent to assure herself that it really was Avery, she was really and truly here. How long had it been since the woman had seen a familiar, friendly face? She shuddered, from the cold, from the sheer overwhelming pressure of the emotions raging within her like a hurricane

Where were they? Why was Avery here, what had caused her to abandon the desert? Eve was desperate for answers, but even more so for the feeling of safety. A year of her life had been spent terrified and paranoid, always looking over her shoulder in that god-forsaken jungle. Even when she had returned to the desert, that feeling of uncertainty and unease never truly faded. She had been alone, even in her old home - a place that had forsaken her, and left her for dead. 

"Don't say sorry, it's my fault this happened, you didn't do anything wrong, just..."

Avery's voice was strained, the emotion within it causing Eve's heart to ache painfully. The thunder crack shook the both of them, chilly raindrops beginning to fall in heavier amounts. "Let's get out of the rain. I'll carry you, okay?" Eve grunted a little, forcing herself to struggled up to her feet. Her joints ached, paws throbbing and maybe a little bloodied from cracked pads - but she remained standing, a tremble passing through her form. "I can make it," the battered wolfdog said defiantly, single eye closing as her headache thrummed along inside her skull, causing her world to spin. It took a few moments before the nauseous feeling faded, Eve's eye opening and looking at the red woman before her. A curt nod was given, a silent message of 'let's go'.

Eve's sandy form remained close to Avery's and, if allowed, would likely lean against the red woman's often for support. The rain was cold but welcomed; it felt nice on her hurting paws, the cold soothing the dull burn of her pawpads. "Avery, I.." Eve began, her voice hoarse and tired. "there's.. a lot I need to tell you." Eve's tone was somewhat ashamed when she spoke, as well as sad and ultimately disappointed - in herself, in what she had failed to do. A failure, that's all she was, wasn't it? A failure at being a friend, at being a mom, at being an alpha. 

"Sicher.. it's gone. The oasis dried up, a massive sandstorm forced everyone to just leave. It's.. all gone now.." Her head hung low, the woman's breath moving the grass as though she were almost speaking directly to the earth itself. Her posture was slouched, pained and tired - she would need to rest soon, or exhaustion would take her into darkness once more. "What is this place?" Curiosity still gnawed at her over that subject, head lifting a little as single eye inspected the forest around them. 
Quote:Safety. That was all women like them really craved in the end, wasn't it? Somewhere separate from the unpredictable world all around them that lashed out at random with vicious hurt they'd never before thought possible. Once upon a time, hurt to the firebird had been a busted leg, a nasty bite from a controlling sister, a long fall onto solid rock... were that she was still so laughably innocent! There was no escaping from danger. She'd take a thousand busted legs if it meant undoing all that had happened. If it meant taking at least one of Eve's captures away. Her unwilling stay in Saboro had all but dominated her life for the past few years -- to have it happen AGAIN?!

She'd have fucking killed herself. 

Eve was a better woman than her, never mind the epithets she branded herself with.

"All right," relented Ave, stepping back, but still hovering near the wolfdog's back should she stumble and start to fall again, though she tried to at least be discreet about it. That was something she could understand, something they had in common, that sort of fierce pride loathe to let anyone baby them. It spoke volumes on what rough shape Eve was in that she leaned against the other woman for support in the end. Of course she'd allow it, she'd be her rock in this storm, and off off they went, clinging to each other like two survivors of a shipwreck, and Avery would take her under the shelter of a gargantuan willow. The one Hawthorne had once taken her to, incidentally. A place of healing, perhaps. 

"There," she murmured, settling down once she'd helped Eve do the same, and for a moment in time. God. Eve here. Eve alive. She couldn't believe it. What was that feeling welling up in her chest, that lightness, that rising sun? Was it joy? Another friend long-lost to time. Softly then: "Tell me." I want to listen for you now.

Her eyes grew wider, an incredulous face, as that news was broken. "It's gone...?" More disbelief than real sadness; she'd grown estranged from her old homeland and she knew it. But to think that the refuge, once so thriving, was all so much fodder for a natural disaster, nobody left, nothing there... it was daunting. Made her too aware suddenly of the passage of time. "I'm sorry." What else was there to say? Quieter afterthought, mournful too strong a word, just resigned, once a moment had passed: "It was my home once, too."

Everybody had to grow up sometime.

"This place?" Avery blinked, gazing around as though just now remembering where they were. "It's... well, this is Gemini." And how the hell to summarize? "It's a funny place," she went on, echoing the words she'd offered previously to Blue. Funny ha-ha? Funny farmish? We just don't know. "A lot of people have come here to start over. You remember me telling you about Saboro? An old queen of theirs broke away and started it up... it's a long story, but I came with, there was a big group of us... then it kept growing, and uh... here we are."

A lick of her whiskery muzzle, quick and anxious.

"Can I hunt for you? Get you water? Anything?"
Quote:"It's gone...? I'm sorry. It was my home once, too."

Eve knew that Avery did not feel the depth of sadness over the loss of the her desert home as deeply as Eve herself did. The red woman had been there for a short time, never truly becoming a part of the desert.. just someone who lived in it. The collie mix had been with Tjenu when it was Sicher, when it was the Blackblood Alliance. Her youthful memories had been made there, and knowing that the desert home she had loved so much was as dead as the shifting sands within it.. 

She moved her mind to other things, much more urgent than wallowing in sadness over lost lands.

"This place? It's... well, this is Gemini. It's a funny place. A lot of people have come here to start over. You remember me telling you about Saboro? An old queen of theirs broke away and started it up... it's a long story, but I came with, there was a big group of us... then it kept growing, and uh... here we are."

The wolfdog listened to Avery's soothing, strong voice, almost lulled into peace by the tones. Noticeably, her tattered and shredded ears fell back against her head at the mention of Saboro, whatever calmness she might have been feeling becoming brittle and worthless. A former Saboran queen ruled these lands? Suddenly anxious and uneasy, body tensing, she focused her single-eyed gaze on Avery. The red woman wouldn't stay under the rule of a Saboran queen.. would she? Avery was here of her own free will, or so she'd said.. for now, Eve had to trust that Avery knew what she was doing. 

"Can I hunt for you? Get you water? Anything?"

Eve's sore paw lifted up from the ground, placing itself on the other woman's. "You can listen," the valkyrie said softly, her words tired and shameful. Eve swallowed, her teal eye focused on the ground below her. "Avery, I.. I was traded to Saboro." The woman inhaled deeply, holding the air within her lungs for a short while before exhaling - hoping the tension, the bad feelings would leave in that breath but knowing they wouldn't. She looked anywhere and everywhere except for at Avery, almost afraid to meet the other woman's gaze. Intently studying (or so it seemed) the massive beautiful willow, long leafy tendrils draped down all around them. Avery would understand the true weight of those words, Avery who had had everything taken from her by that bloody red jungle. Eve understood, now.

"I spent so long there, Avery. Just.. rotting away as a slave in that god forsaken jungle." Her muzzle wrinkled, brows furrowing together as her tone soured. No one had come for her, her own packmates content to leave her to rot -- but stupid enough to allow Saboro to sink their poisonous claws into the desert. It brought Eve a small amount of petty satisfaction, knowing that the outpost Saboro had secured was completely worthless now. "When I came back, nothing was the same. I thought I would be happy to be home, but.. that place wasn't my home." That desert no longer held the familiar warmth that Eve had grown to love. It was just a cold, dead land filled with unfamiliar faces.

All the valkyrie wanted was safety and security. Had Avery found those things here, beneath the rule of a former Saboran queen of all things? "Who.. who is your queen?" Eve understandably had very little faith in the idea of a trustworthy Saboran ruler. If Avery was still here, though.. perhaps it was worth at least looking in to. God knew the wolfdog was so very tired of running.
Quote:Avery was no clairvoyant, but she also was no idiot, and when Eve's ears drew back and her mangled face grew tense the moment she happened to mention that this place was under rule by a runaway queen of Saboro... well. She could connect the dots, and apologetically, quick to remedy that terrible jolt of anxiety, the firebird spoke again.

"She's different," was her reassurance, and she could say it confidently now, as she might never have with Derringer, should that brute still lurk among the living. "She's..." A pause, a hum of consideration. "... like me." They really did have so much in common, virtues and flaws alike. Compassion for those downtrodden. Hellish fury when pushed. Idealism. Royal children, their lives entrusted to her, an old enemy; neither one had ever once thought it possible at all. "Saboro was every bit as bad to her as it was to me. No history's gonna... repeat itself here, you know?"

A pale paw then, reaching for hers. Avery accepted it and set her great head across the crook of the forelimb she'd been touched with, a motion that was consoling and very tired all at once, belying something heavy and poisonous like lead. You can listen, was all the wolfdog said, and so she would, her own ears flicked back and sun-gold eye rolling half-lidded to look up at Eve. Maybe she'd feel the jaw tighten hard, the teeth clench together with something passionate and horrified and so fucking angry -- watch that same eye, see its pupil constrict as though it was disappearing fast down a tunnel --

Oh god.

"I knew it," Avery croaked hoarsely. She pulled in a seething breath, sucking it in as though fighting against a vacuum for it, and forced it out hot and fiery and hateful. "I knew it, I [i]knew it, those fuCKING --"

Almost choking on the words, the agony in the face of a confirmation she'd suspected all along, and for a horrible humiliating moment, Avery thought she might begin to cry. The suffocating seize, the aching in the chest, the eyes that blurred like she'd been plunged face-first into the sea. Fuck...

"I'm... I shouldn't have gone after them, I made them angry... I'm..."

(my fault it's all my fault all you do is get people hurt you're a CURSE)

"D-Did... you escape, too? Did Sicher do something?" Maybe they weren't quite as useless and uncaring as the firebird had left them, more concerned about squabbling over Eve's empty seat like seagulls fighting over a chunk of bread than saving her life --

She'd gone out herself. And that was why, wasn't it? Someone had to save people like them, and when one too many times you ran into incompetence and indifference and bystander syndrome when you looked for that help... you learned to seek it yourself. People can't be relied upon. Not enough.

Nobody deserved this.

But here it was anyway.

"Her name is Serrate. Maybe... you've seen her?" Somewhere in that deep and consuming hellhole. "I was out of there before she was... but it's... hard to remember what happened when anymore."
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Quote:Avery must have noticed Eve's uneasiness, scrambling to explain the situation and ease the wolfdog's nerves. 

"She's different. She's... like me. Saboro was every bit as bad to her as it was to me. No history's gonna... repeat itself here, you know?"

Eve swallowed, throat unpleasantly dry. Was it possible that someone who ruled over the violent red jungle was kind and compassionate? A memory of Coven's yellowed fangs and Kross's malevolent gaze flashed in Eve's mind; she frowned, shaking her head. "I'll.. have to take your word for that, I guess."

The firebird's reaction to the news of what had happened to Eve caused the wolfdog to shrink slightly. The fringe collie pressed herself into Avery almost desperately, as if clinging on to the red and charcoal woman for dear life. "I knew it, I knew it, I knew it, those fuCKING --" "Avery, please, no, no - it's okay --" "I'm... I shouldn't have gone after them, I made them angry... I'm..." "No! None of what happened is your fault, Avery!" the valkyrie almost yelled, her voice strained with small embers of pain and hurt burning on the fringes. 

"D-Did... you escape, too? Did Sicher do something?"

Tattered remnants of what had once been her ears pressed back against her skull, and Eve buried her face in the firebird's thick ruff. "Sicher.. they didn't care. Saboro had to -- they traded me back, for a post in the desert." It hurt, god did it hurt, like hot knives sticking into her spine. No one had come for her, or for Aleksei.. they had been too busy squabbling over her empty throne to give a fuck. Her jaw tightened, but suddenly, a bark of rough laughter cut through the air. "Guess the joke's on Saboro, losing what they traded me back for without even getting to use it.

It brought Eve a little bit of satisfaction knowing that Saboro had gotten absolutely nothing out of that deal in the end. 

"Her name is Serrate. Maybe... you've seen her? I was out of there before she was... but it's... hard to remember what happened when anymore."

The wolfdog shook her head. She'd never met anyone named Serrate during her time in the jungle. "The.. Sabora?" she said almost questioningly, uncertain of the correct term. "During my time there was Sol Katti.. and the king, Coven." Eve inhaled deeply, sighing as she exhaled slowly. "I met.. a few wolves. A young boy named Raylan, and a girl named Hecate, and this.. weird one named Zasha, I don't think he was all there but he was.. kind, at least," and in Saboro, that was a rare trait to find, Eve imagined. "Not.. all of them were bad." Like the trio who had cared for her and fed her - Atlas, Bane, and Reiss. There had been kindness - or at least, lack of malevolence - in the jungle, a surprising thing to find to the wolfdog who saw Saboro only as evil
Quote:Ash and agony in her throat when she tried to breathe; the firebird raged against the suffocation, raged against the god damn injustice of it all --

(her friend shrank and pleaded. people were afraid of her anger. people were cut by the sharp edges of her pain. this was what she was.)

-- and battled away her grief, wrestling it down not for her own sake, but for the woman clinging to her who'd seen far too much terror already. Avery squeezed her eyes shut, reopened them in a snap. Pulled in air and focused on keeping it full and steady, protection against the threat of drowning. In her mind she envisioned mountains, ibex, pine trees, snow-capped peaks. She counted backwards, multiplied each number as they went. Mindfulness, Hawthorne had called it -- was that right? It kept her calm during storms. It kept her rooted to her own skin. It kept her thoughts stitched together when they wanted to fly apart.

"Sorry," she said slowly, shaking her head. Back. Forth. A rhythm, a metronome. A heartbeat. Steady. "I'm sorry. I didn't... mean to yell. I'm not mad at you, I just..." The firebird set her great head back down, across the nape of Eve's neck this time, that she might be able to lean into her mane like she wanted. "... it should never have happened."

Sicher, Tjenu, whatever the hell it had called itself -- it disgusted Avery down to her core, the gross and self-centered apathy they'd demonstrated in the face of a crime against one of their own, the feeble-minded failure to learn from history and do the right thing in this remarkably similar situation to the one that in the past Sunrush had so egregiously bungled. Idiots, the lot of them. Fucking morons. Fair-weather friends to the extreme. She pitied the children, the uninvolved and unaware innocents affected by the sandstorm that buried their nation once and for all, but otherwise... they could choke on it for all she cared.

"Just pathetic," she spat, a bitter laugh croaking from her dry throat not at all unlike Eve's own chuckle. Just depressing. "A post in the desert, tch. For fuck's sake. Who needs 'em." That Saboro hadn't gotten what they wanted, sacrificing a chess piece for no good reason, would have amused her nastily if she didn't know them well enough to realize they probably didn't give a shit anyway.

Different rulers. Another day, another tyrant. Avery had at least been fortunate enough to evade the Cokatti reign. "I guess..." she relented slowly, not sure what else to say. "... they couldn't all be." Despite what it was far easier on her to believe. "I'm glad not everyone was shitty."

The firebird closed her eyes once more. She too had liked herself best when she remembered to be kind to the prisoners.

"And I'm glad you made it here."

Too tired, too weak in this moment to bite her tongue and hold back the admission of --

"I really missed you."
Quote:They were bound to tragedy it seemed, the both of them, experiencing chaos and turmoil wherever they went. Their wrists bore the lasting marks of shackles that had crushed their bones, and they each had a void within them created by the terrible loss of everything they had ever loved, or wanted to love. Kindred spirits in all of the worst ways - but they were together again, finally. That was what mattered. 

"Sorry, I'm sorry. I didn't... mean to yell. I'm not mad at you, I just... it should never have happened." 

Eve pressed her head against the firebird's warm body, her friend's scent the most comforting aroma the wolfdog had encountered in a very long time. "It's okay, it's okay," she reassured the other woman softly, offering a comforting lick or two to her friend's fur. Eve wanted apologies, and vengeance, oh how she wanted vengeance - but she did not want apologies from Avery. The firebird had been there for her, she cared; that was more than the fringe collie could say for anyone else. 

She listened as Avery spat and cursed about Saboro and about Tjenu the same way Eve herself often did. Eve's anger had somewhat lessened as time passed, but the desire for retribution burned within her like an undying flame. The valkyrie would not ever forget the faces of those that wronged her. 

"I'm glad not everyone was shitty. And I'm glad you made it here. I really missed you."

Those last words struck a chord deep within the wolfdog's chest, causing her heart to flutter gently. "Well I found you, so.. I'm glad I made it here, too." The words were softly spoken, Eve chuckling lightly. She was happy to have wound up in Gemini of all places in the world - it had to have been fate that led the fringe collie back to her companion. 

Her entire body ached, exhaustion creeping up slowly. Eve wanted to sleep, to rest for days and days, but was almost afraid that if she went to sleep, she would wake in Saboro, or in Tjenu.. alone. "Will you.. stay with me, for tonight?" she asked almost meekly, single seaside eye closed and breathing already growing lengthier and slower. "I'm so glad I found you," Eve mumbled sleepily into Avery's fur. Thunder rolled in the distance, lulling the exhausted woman to sleep.

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  Psychosomatic [Setebos]
Posted by: Kashmir - October 31, 2017, 01:23:11 AM - No Replies

Quote:Twilight in Inaria. He ought to have been sleeping, lost in some whispering dream.

That precious reprieve had been stolen away from him by the vindictive ghosts of an old wound. In his unconscious mind had bloomed flowers upon vines that overtook the old-world forest like a womb, swallowing it up so that it all might start over in a generous second chance. Fear might have grasped him in his waking life, but in the dream he'd only felt relief, and... a foreign sense of safety. Something was ending it all. Something was giving them rest. It was all okay and even as the vines started to smother him he knew this meant peace, this meant mercy, it meant that he didn't have to feel dead anymore, and --

the vines squeezed too tight and they started to hurt and stab and he felt betrayed and so confused and --

he woke in panic and agony, clawing at his throat, trying to scratch out the dream and the thorns and the teeth, he couldn't breathe, he was being strangled...

He must have emerged from his den and walked to the healer's garden. He must have plucked the chamomile leaves currently in his mouth. He must have. But the memory of it was not there. Kashmir returned to his body only when the desperate gasping and the awful pain (god had he eaten ground glass had he drank poison what was wrong what was WRONG) began mercifully to fade into rattling, steady breaths and a raw ache that prickled as the inside of his throat where the leaves had rubbed on their way down.

Kashmir didn't have it in him tonight to perch, sphinx-like, with the sort of dignity expected of the queen's right-hand man. He lay instead on his side, exhausted and despondent, his eyes squeezed shut. He was alone, for now. He could allow himself this weakness. Like he had a choice in the matter.

If he'd attracted the resident doctor with his racket, at least the striped back would be turned to him as he approached. Nobody, not even the delicate few he trusted, would ever see his face like that if he could help it.
Quote:Setebos had been asleep, like most of the pack, and for once, he had been sleeping quite soundly. It was not a luxury that he was frequently able to enjoy. But the sounds of a disturbance in the garden reached far enough to perforate the chamomile fog that kept him under, like a rapier's thin silver blade. It made sense that it would rouse him; after spending so long toiling in that space, fathering the plants that were used to heal Inaria's people, he could almost consider the garden an extension of himself. Crushed foliage felt like broken bones. Footprints left bruises on his skin. When the earth crumbled apart, roots unraveling, his flesh sloughed off his body in thick goopy sheets.

Setebos's first impulse when he sensed an intruder wasn't to confront them. Not anymore. At first he gave serious consideration to cowering in his den until whoever was ransacking the garden decided to leave. He turned away from the sliver of moonlight streaming through his den opening, blinding himself to the trees that towered outside like jail cell bars. He thought about the day he had met the Saboran medic within the wreckage of the garden; how their little green paradise had been turned into a post-disaster pastoral scene. He thought about giggling Saboran bandits streaking through the garden like teenage delinquents with paint cans in hand, popping yarrow plants out of the earth and scrambling the neatly delineated rows of flora, sparing not even the tiniest saplings from their rampage.

In that moment, the idea of Nereid and Jette having returned for him was a very real possibility.

He took a few, deep breaths to steel himself, and pawed at the tears that were collecting in his eyes, rubbing them into the back of his skull. He told himself that it was just a prey animal looking to graze, or some stupid punk that was about to face the wrath of God. He got to his feet and charged out of the den before his endlessly looping thoughts looped in the other direction. His characteristic fury was a limp caricature, but in the light of the moon, a touch bedraggled from sleep, and with eyes rimmed in crust and red haze, he was granted a certain presence that he would have otherwise lost.

Even under Inaria's indigo twilight, with their mutual greys and earthy tones viewed through a fairy tale filter, Setebos was able to recognize Kashmir. He was laying on the side, stricken, and were it not for the harsh, irregular gasps issuing through his throat, Setebos would have assumed that he collapsed. That lingering shade of fear dissolved into a vague relief, and then hardened into contempt. Kashmir was no friend of his. The two had never interacted in any lasting way, but during that vicious, terrible war, he had seen enough of the jackal to determine that there was something truly wrong with him. Haven he could forgive - he loathed the circumstances that had forced her into that position, and despised her role in it, but she would have never thought to brazenly assault a noncombatant pleading for his friend's life.

That was because Haven had decency. Kashmir was a barbarian playing pretend.

What would have happened to Anglachel if Setebos hadn't been there? Would Haven have been too distracted by Thresher and Sage to prevent her Marquis from eating Anglachel's heart?

Setebos narrowed his eyes. "Kashmir," Setebos grunted. "The hell're you doing here?"
Quote:"Kashmir. The hell're you doing here?"

Inside, he cringed like a beaten dog. It didn't show up on his face, upon which creaked open a fiery sliver of yellow in reflex to the gruff demand, but it was there in the tightening of his guts, the tensing of his muscles that rebelled powerfully against the possibility of company in this moment. Least of all from this man, who had peered beyond the obfuscating veil, who very likely abhorred him. Setebos had seen firsthand the venom of the jackal's teeth, the unhinged vigilante that curled waiting underneath the skin of nobility and passivity. Setebos knew what he looked like with blood smeared all over his face; Setebos knew what he looked like poisoned and weak and so delirious he'd mistaken the doctor with his bright coat for Acheron. Kashmir had in return seen Setebos wailing and thrashing with his belly opened wide and his intestines saying a slimy hello to the open air...

Kashmir had pulled him from certain death.

Kashmir was just like the ones who'd assaulted him.

Unfettered doctor-killer, merciless slayer of unarmed combatants, that cold and terrible darkness in his core...

He could insist until he ran out of breath that he wouldn't have murdered Anglachel. That he was only making a point. Defending their honor. But it would always lack the honesty of someone who knew this for sure. What indeed might have happened that day, had Set not come? They'd never find out. Maybe that was a mercy on par with that which had allowed them both to survive the war in the first place.

Kashmir pulled in a wheezing, laborious breath. Steadied his respiration by some miracle of nature. He turned to look up at Setebos, the skin beneath his eyes bruised with exhaustion. 

"Medicine," he croaked softly. Probably the medic would have to lean closer to hear him. The jackal coughed, trying to bring back some of his voice, not really succeeding. "I have -- problems with --" Pause. Wheeze. "-- with my throat."

It hurt to talk. It made him edgy, this hard-eyed other man being here. So you can go now, Kash might have sniffed had he been a coarser animal, but alas... 

"I'm sorry if -- I woke you."

Maybe that was even true.
Quote:Kashmir creaked around to face him, motions haphazard and jerking like a wind-up toy sputtering along on its last few steps, broken bulb eyes spitting fluorescent cinders. Although Kashmir was wavering and feeble as if he was struggling to stand, part of Setebos recoiled, reflexively; externally, however, he was ever solemn and unaffected. It was the cowardly part of him that flinched. That was the scared-shitless part of him that saw Kashmir and compared what he did to Anglachel to what Jette and Nereid did to him. The part of him that laid awake at night while the rest of him starved for sleep; the brain that held the body hostage.

But Setebos, the self, knew that Kashmir, like all cowards, would never dare to confront him. As long as Setebos looked him in the eye, he would be protected. Men like him lived behind their disguises. He could find reassurance in that. Kashmir had tried to kill Anglachel because he thought that he could get away with it. 

Were it not for the things that Setebos witnessed in the war, he would have found Kashmir utterly pitiful. He choked on every polite word. His windpipe had more in common with a car's exhaust pipe than a working esophagus. Might be from trauma, the diagnostic half of Setebos's brain supplied, and if Setebos fought the urge to smile wryly at that instant, it was because the wording was so damned ironic.

Setebos blinked, at last breaking eye contact. He looked at the savaged scraps of chamomile strewn on the ground, and gingerly poked at a severed stem with a toe. "You should've woken me up," he said, not immediately acknowledging Kashmir's apology. "If you were gonna make so much damn noise, 'least then you would've had someone make you something for that throat."

The forced cordiality made him sick. Setebos really wanted to take his shitty apology, fold it up into a paper airplane, and watch it fly into the lake. He was sorry for waking him up? For ruining the one good night's rest he had in ages? You should be, Setebos thought of saying. I could be getting some shut-eye. Instead I'm babying you. But he didn't, because that would be revealing too much.

Setebos's pointed silence said everything he wanted to.

"Your... throat," Setebos said, "You're having trouble breathing? Any chest pains?"

Maybe he just wanted to break the awkward silence; maybe he didn't have the conscience to turn away a beaten, injured creature. Maybe he wanted to prove to Kashmir that he was a better person by healing someone he had so much contempt for. Maybe Setebos had nothing better to do. In the end, it was none of those. It was because he was, after all, a doctor. Was there anything left to say?
Quote:The doctor's hard stare was not met. Had the jackal been less passive, maybe he would have pushed back against that mute disgust and disapproval with the defiance of a direct stare, but as it was... he was looking somewhere off to the side of Setebos' head instead. Staring through him rather than at him. Cowardly? It was a bold epithet to slap onto someone who'd fought a war, who'd once charged into hostile territory and battled monsters to save a beloved friend and queen, but... this was another animal (ha ha) entirely. Kashmir knew what to do with an angry enemy. He didn't know what to do with an angry Inarian, not when those ill feelings were pointed at him like a condemning pike. Or when he knew, an observer might naively guess, that he deserved said ire.

I'm sorry I woke you, he'd wheedled, and it was manipulation even he was unaware of, this little waving white flag. I'm sorry you feel that way, the evasion, the sliding under culpability for his appalling behavior. I'm sorry I was caught, the implication behind it all. If it will smooth this over, maybe I'll even tell you I'm sorry for what I did to that medic.

The exposure spooked him far more than his own brutality. The look, brief but striking, of horror in Haven's eyes. His hackles prickled uncertainly. Coward, indeed.

"Well," he murmured gingerly, a cautious step forward, "all the same. I know it's been -- hard for everyone to rest."

Those eyes, luminous liquid yellow, cast downward at the ruined stems. "Lotus told me, after it happened, that these would help with the pain. I didn't -- have time to do anything with them." He breathed out in a loose, ragged exhalation of breath and moved slowly as if to sit up. Bad idea ahoy. A little pulse of dizziness threatened him and put him right back on his belly. "Sometimes -- it does. My chest. But only when it gets... like this. You know."

He gave Setebos a sidelong look. Watchful. Questioning.

"I guess I'm used to it."
Quote:"I know it's been hard for everyone to rest," Kashmir said, a halted attempt at understanding, and Setebos was once again tempted to reward his empathy with a pointed question asking him what he believed he knew about other people. Again, inexplicably, he refrained, instead settling for a mediocre dismissal without the same disdainful sting.

"Mm," Setebos acknowledged, gruffly, and let that thread fall. 

Kashmir groped so desperately for reconciliation - Setebos was content with denying it until the end of his days, if only because it brought him some measure of satisfaction. Wherever did this bottomless spite come from? He had once regarded Kashmir with even neutrality, and now he could barely look at him, even in this pitiful and toothless state, without feeling his skin crawl. He couldn't help but feel like his weakness was a charade, and if he turned his back on Kashmir for a moment, those needlelike teeth would be gnawing at his throat. He had attacked another medic - what was one more doctor slain to protect his dirty little secret?

It was why, of course, Setebos did not turn his back on Kashmir.

Setebos looked at the chamomile again. Lotus was a competent doctor, his professional misgivings aside, and her recommendation was sound. However, he had a more effective way of administering the antidote, and enhancing its latent effects, than Kashmir's maddened fumbling. Ingesting it was a viable method, but he could guarantee the effectiveness of this remedy, and it would be a more soothing process than forcing twigs down an uncooperative esophagus. Setebos scooped the chamomile off the ground and proceeded wordlessly to a nearby fire pit, still heady with the smell of a recently kindled fire. He rooted through the mound of ashes, setting up the makeshift device used to prepare poultices, and with some finagling, reignited the fire.

Setebos allowed Kashmir to prattle on about his symptoms, which he digested with clinical objectivity. He dashed the chamomile into a golden powder and tossed it into the bowl, turning the water inside bronze, its color shifting to a muted saffron as he added some yarrow and coltsfoot, and once it was finished, he removed the steaming hot cup from the fire and presented it at Kashmir's feet. It was too hot to consume immediately, but once he was able to drink it, it would only be a matter of time before Kashmir felt his symptoms begin to abate.

"Try this," Setebos instructed impassively. "Drinking it'll be a bit of a struggle, but once you're able to get it down, you'll start to feel some... improvements."
Quote:Setebos was not wrong to be fearful, for he'd been through something horrific that most of his fellows could not claim to have survived with trauma and scarring as fun bonuses, but Kashmir in this moment was vulnerable. Something hateful was dragging its claws down the interior of his throat. He was hardly in an attacking mood or any shape for it at all... not that he would have anyway, despite the buried id-fueled wish that Set conveniently lose all memory of their last encounter.

Instead the marquis just watched, eyes bleary and a little dazed looking, as the chamomile was mashed, stirred, prepared into a sort of tea that steamed in the open air. He regarded it mutely, observing the color and smell. 

"Thank you," murmured the jackal, though he took Set's word and waited for the remedy to cool, even bad as the pain was. You've felt worse, haven't you, Kash?

He didn't like the idea of incurring the animosity of someone who could casually poison him if he wanted. He relished even less the idea of being disliked by an Inaria even less. It felt all wrong. They were supposed to be on the same side, as Good People in a foul world. 

(Search: how do I make this right?)

(Result: you probably can't.)

"Are you..."

Started and stopped, hesitant, not quite knowing the words.

"... I appreciate this. After -- well. Everything."
Quote:Once the tea was prepared, Setebos sat back on his haunches and nudged the concoction closer to Kashmir's paws. He waited. When Kashmir did not immediately drink it, his eyes hardened in an impatient, admonishing glare, his brow furrowing. Setebos would entertain Kashmir for only so long, and if he tested his hospitality, he had no issue revoking his aid. Better to leave the wretched creature to fend for himself; see how much he enjoyed being helpless.

Or so he told himself. His mercy was rejected and repaid through violence time and time again, and yet, against his better judgment, he persisted. Stupidity. Gluttony. Jette and Nereid had been able to prey on him by staging a trap. Setebos put his life and reputation on the line to defend a Saboran he didn't even know, and immediately following his act of magnanimity, two of the crimson kingdom's warriors mangled him beyond recognition, mutilating him so severely that it reached past his physical body and permeated his very life. No aspect of his existence remained the same. Once before he had been forced to adapt to life without his mate, and after the assault, his universe was again rearranged.

Maybe it would bring Kashmir a cruel sense of gratification to know that Setebos, in some ways, regretted his intervention when Anglachel was being attacked. Though there was no clear correlation between the events, as he pondered his actions on that day, he had to wonder if it was worth it. If he had to continue sacrificing himself for very little payoff.

Part of him, the part of his brain untouched by bitterness, the one that treated Kashmir despite overwhelming contempt, insisted that it wasn't about himself. Even if he knew what he did now, if he traveled backwards through time, he would have still saved Anglachel. He refused to have been complicit in that boy's death. Doing the right thing wasn't meant to be easy or rewarding. By becoming a doctor, Setebos had promised the world that his obligations always came first, above creed or kingdom or loyalty.

(But Setebos had always been a bitter man.)

More silence. Kashmir's lips smacked anxiously, preparing his tongue for another attempt at conversation. "Are you..." he began, trailing off. Are you what? Are you angry? He was livid. Are you alright? Not even remotely. Kashmir never finished that sentence.

"I appreciate this. After -- well. Everything." Setebos's blood ran cold, freezing his heart in his chest and stilling his pulse. He inhaled through his nose to compose himself. Grit his teeth and set his jaw.

"I'm just doing my job," Setebos snapped. Did Kashmir understand? He was proving a point. He was issuing a message that was unequivocal: I am better than you. I haven't forgotten my principles. Unlike you, I can be better than our enemies. "Now drink this and go to bed, Marquis."

Go to bed, and let's pretend that this never happened.

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  Always Tripping (Umbra)
Posted by: Titus - October 31, 2017, 01:21:13 AM - No Replies








The mornings here were quite different, almost boring for the young male. He was used to waking up at the crack of dawn and starting his patroling. Making sure that there were no intruders in the packland. That no one was stealing herbs or food from the pack. He was used to making sure that there was order everywhere he went. He was used to protecting everyone from dawn til dusk, but, it seemed that everyone has spread out to explore the land as the spirit and the dragon conversed.

An so, leaving the giant to explore on his own as well. His stomach felt hollow, but it wasn't grumbling or anything. He was used to eating only at night. Although, he was pretty sure he was getting distracted as the smell of a deer herd was teasing his nostrils and causing him to follow the scent. Beckoning him to follow the delicious scent of one of his favorite things to eat.
Large paws move slowly through the forest as miss matched eyes glance around for any signs of a der herd. Titus could smell them, but he's yet to see any scat or tracks from them. He'll have to keep his ears swiveling since it seems that these deer are masters of blending in with this thick tree envirment.

The giant looks to his right, then his left as he tries to listen for the deer that he was following. He was pretty sure that he had found the direction that his possible meal was in, when. He stumbled over a root. W-woah! He mumbled as he steadied his long legs. Titus took a few footsteps forward before he looked back to see what he had tripped over. Only to gulp and lower his head. He tripped over someone again, his large paws seem to atteact everyone that's even a tad bit smaller then he is. "I'm terribly sorry Miss." He mumbled quietly, his tail low as he looked at the young one he had walked into. "I wasn't paying attention."






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  Just Two Dudes (Ocrist)
Posted by: Titus - October 31, 2017, 01:18:28 AM - No Replies








This place was certainly different then what the large male was used to. It felt warmer, dryer then what he was used to in borogrove. It kind of gave him the chills, change usually caused the male to be on edge. This time though, he was a visitor in another land. So, he needed to make sure that he was on his best behavior, and that there wasn't any teeth that were seeking his throat after one wrong move.

His paws moved carefully, picking up dry soil as he moved along. Careful, quiet. His two different colored eyes looked around, taking things in as he moved. His ears twitched, picting up all of the sounds, and his nose. Twitching as the smells that he was unfamiliar with. The members he was unfamiliar with, filled his nostrils. This pack was certainly interesting, that's for sure. The pacl, Alteron, also seemed a lot larger then what he was used to. Or maybe it was just in his head?

Titus took a turn to the right on his walk, his head held high, shifting as he saw a bird fly past his head and soar towards the sky. So many black birds in this area, they were kinda scary.

Then, as the multi colored male looked forward, he stopped in his tracks. The male that he had met at the border earlier was not far from him. "Ah, so we meet again so soon." Titus said, trying to seem polite, although this male did kind of scare him the tiniest of bits. "I'm terribly sorry that I didn't get to introduce myself earlier, my name is Titus."






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  Holding out for a Hero (Seki/Open/Quake/Rescue)
Posted by: Stellairria - October 30, 2017, 04:32:17 PM - Replies (11)

She had been little more than a ghost, even to her dear Ticon. She's dropped down, taken time to herself, taken time to clear her mind, her emotions. She was still a wreck, still in pain, still so very much hurt. Even so, she had been recovering but, she relapsed, she fell back into hiding, from everyone including herself. Well, nature has her ways of forcing others to wake the hell up and take charge. Stella was sleeping sprawled out Moon only knew where, near the mountains, that was for sure, she'd always been more at home under the looming shadow of the great walls of earth for some strange reason. This time.... This time the ground shook, violently, rattling her from the rare deep slumber, least she wasn't skin and bones, Ticon wouldn't let that happen, he'd somehow find her and leave a small meal one way or another.... Somehow.

 Those bright sky blue eyes snapped open, body jolted awake as everything rattled and shook around her. She was scared yes but, she was more numb than anything as her mind went blank and she thought of the family that had taken her in, some more harsh than others but, even so... Ticon first and foremost, Byakko, Akutan..... that whole family... Some would say she was being trailed by the Black Wolf while she would say the Wind was not with her, the Light and Shadow were not in balance. No matter what the case, she was very much mortal and very much in danger. She scrambled into action, shuffling to her paws and bolting toward the wall of rock and earth, figuring it would be safer to run alongside that in the hopes of a cave and.... As luck would have it, there was a cavern small enough for her to squeeze into.
 
She knew she was in Duskwood, she knew she was walking a thin line but, she also knew she would never leave and she knew others in the pack respected that about the mentally fractured golden female. She wandered slowly throught the tunnels though, with a sense of urgency all at once, picking her way through the darkness until the bioluminescentglow of the Moon room hit her. She heard a rumble and saw the mirical tunnel cave in, she'd never seen it before anyway... She bounded onward. Growing rather cocky with her streak of luck.
 
She was ou tin the open, heading toward the Human ruins north of Mount Celeste when she was swallowed up by the earth. The ground shook violently as she ran and opened up under her, swallowing the small female, and all it could over her. Stella forced her way half way out of the ruble she was under, loose, thankful but the pit was far too deep and... Her left hind leg.... She couldn't move it, it hurt... There was so much pain. "Ticon...." She breathed out, blue gaze wide with fear as she struggled more, scratching herself up all the more. She was a rusty mess already between the dirt and blood, her struggles only adding more red to the spectrum. "Ticon." She repeated louder as she struggled.
 
She fought for what felt like forever, finally figuring she was stuck, her leg pinned under something in the ruble she was half buried in. She whined, panting as panic was in full swing, a desperate howl sounding. It was shrill, it sounded the sound of a creature in pain and fear and for those who knew her voice, it would be a blessing and a curse. She clawed and struggled more, finally breaking, "TICON!" She screamed out from her pit of hell. "TICON!" She screamed again, calling out for the single creature of comfort she knew would be there. Still, she struggled. "TICONDEROGA!!" Came a final screech before she collapsed, panting heavily as panic began to take hold, her eyes wide, ears fallen. She looked a mess, full of terror and panic as she lay there half buried, drooling against the dirt and dirtied by it. Hardly a thing of beauty to most, save for one soul who was probably desperate to find her.

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  Just... Buy the Tree. [Echo]
Posted by: Ashe - October 30, 2017, 03:44:36 PM - Replies (10)

Ashe had been settled into a visitor's den for the night, with Echo promising to return to show her a few possible denning sites in the morning.  Despite his assurances that she was safe, Ashe lay awake late into the night.  The sounds of the forest around her were unfamiliar, and the changes of cadence kept startling her back into wakefulness.  Her mind was abuzz with thoughts and what ifs, and she was trying very hard to to turn it off.  Instead, she focused on what was here, in the moment.  She was dry, she was warm, she was fed.  There was at least one male here who was interested in her safety.  She had not been accosted or threatened.  She was, for the moment.... safe.  Like counting sheep, she repeated the mantra until eventually, she fell asleep.

The grey light of dawn seeped into the shallow burrow, glinting across Ashe's closed eyes.  She lifted a paw and rubbed her muzzle, scratching the sleep grit from her face.  She stretched, shook herself, and stepped out into the morning.  A few birds sang overhead, and the grass and ferns that nestled in the shade of the trees still sparked with beads of dew.  It was a beautiful land, this new home of hers.  She hadn't seen very much of it on her way in, but today was supposed to change that.  She wondered what they would find.  Perhaps a nice little cave?  Or an old tree?  Ashe wasn't much of a digger.  Perhaps somewhere with a view, if she was lucky enough.  Were there any spots that overlooked a meadow somewhere?  She liked to watch the deer in the morning.  So lost in the prospects of what she wanted as a space of her own, she forgot to be aware of her surroundings.


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