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It was news delivered with an upbeat voice, expecting that it would be a miracle amidst her personal tragedy, rather than deepening it further. From there, things moved at a pace so swift it felt the small hellion hardly had a moment to feel, to truly anticipate her situation in full. It wasn't real to her, until it was. They arrived on a cold early morning, with the help of a healer who Zehava wasn't sure she even knew, but she would take any guidance in that moment, at such a loss, unprepared to welcome the tiny creatures into her life. They didn't derserve this. She didn't deserve this.
They were here, nonetheless. In short time, she was alone again, alone with the small bodies, squirming and crying. She felt nothing, not even fear as she looked at them, seeing the hints of that very distinct hue that made her stomach turn. There was only one whose soft little body was colored in faint gold. She'd drawn it near, uncertain when its cries sounded far more troubling than the others'. Zehava held the child between her paws as it struggled to draw breath. It was only when the poor soul lost its fight that she began to feel. Tears streamed down her face, cold stinging her eyes until exhaustion took her, drifting into a restless sleep.
Most of her days to follow were similar, watching the surviving children growing slowly, feeling them press close to her for warmth, and her unable to deny them, though at times she certainly wanted to. She felt trapped in that den with them, knowing yet that she had to stay, and at times, she wanted to, maybe just because it was right. Maybe she just hadn't the energy to go, still healing and just too emotionally broken down to make such a choice.
Beyond the check-ins of a kind acolyte, one of whom had taken from her the small body that had so reflected her own, it was just her and the children. In time they became more than just ambiguous wiggling babies, quickly become their own selves, developing personalities of their own. She spoke so little to them, it was likely they would be more influenced by visitors, the family that their father had left behind. Surely they felt more of a responsibility to them, to see to it that they survived. Someone who knew what it meant to nurture and to love them.
It was only upon the suggestion of another in Gemini that Zehava would finally venture out with them, somehow who knew better. Were it up to her perhaps they all would have stayed in that hole in the ground, herself included, until they faded away. The thought made her stomach turn with guilt, the mother pressing out into the open day, quietly welcoming her children into the world of melting snow. They were born to an awful season, she thought, an awful everything.
Zehava would just watch them, unsure of how to introduce them to their world beyond letting them discover it themselves. It would be better that way.
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welcoming fallow, cryptid, alu, bhradain, zen and (maybe?)luzio into the awful world!
thread is open to anyone, zeke's family, acolytes, shepherds, etc!
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