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Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
To be honest, Laurel... didn't know how to live on her own. As child, she'd been surrounded by others, grew up with "siblings" she hated. And true, she'd hated them and in turn they'd hated her, but there had been an odd sense of comradery in that, an understanding, an order. A place. Being on her own, meant she didn't have that. And, continuing with this honesty trend, Laurel didn't understand why she was alone, not fully. Just.. one day she was biting the hand that fed and next...
The next day, they were chasing her out into the dark, rising sun with spear and flame, and Laurel had snarled and snapped with every step. And that was months (years?) ago, but her mind played it over and over in her head like a record stuck on loop, a scene she could recall like it had happened yesterday. Another failure, another mask shattered. She wondered, once all those masks cracked, what would be left of her? Did she have anything else? Was she anything else? Or was she has fake as the things that she needed to be and to be seen as? She didn't know, and right now, she didn't have time to care.
When man pushed her out to her death, they called her things like "mutt" and "mongrel", but they'd forgotten the one thing her littermates made sure she remembered: she was more. She was the outcast, the one that didn't fit. She'd been wilder, rougher, dangerous. She was wolf, under the doggish frame, under the slinking, wagging tail and pinned ears, the friendly willingness she'd begrudgingly portrayed to survive in a world that barely wanted her. Wolves survived, no matter the environment they found themselves in. Dogs laid down and died when things got a little tough.
Surviving, for her, meant having a place, meant surrounding herself with the familiar, meant following her nose until she found the scent of others like her, no matter what that meant. Oddly enough, it meant finding a little corner of the world where the brisk smell of sea air swam in the wind, teasing her with shores off in the distance. She'd never seen an ocean before, and that was enough to peak her curiosity. If that meant putting on a show to be able to do that, she would.
Maybe, she'd hate it a little less this time.
Pack scent was strong, here, and Laurel knew better than to intrude, so she waited, short legs pacing in a betrayal of her anxiety. They could just as easily run her off, there was nothing stopping them from kicking her to the curb, and something in her didn't like the idea of that. Something in her was drawn to this place. Here, she thought, she could find out how she belonged.