The path had become smaller and less determined as they progressed. Somewhere along the line they'd set up camp, somewhere along the line they'd wandered in circles, somewhere along the line she felt herself slipping. Slipping into something, perhaps madness, sadness, or even just a deep, rich drink of reality as to what her life had come to. At the end of the day, she'd held onto the one small shred of hope she had left, and that was finding something more than just her son's tail. Time continued to tick, like a stopwatch that rattled and clicked at every waking second as if her time were running out. Time for what? Finding Hircine? Returning home? Oriana couldn't pinpoint the root of this feeling, only acknowledging that it existed and it caused a certain sense of tension running through her bones, her nerves, her core.
That sneaky, toxic thorn still sat atop her head— a pretty little pedestal her head was for such a dominating thing, the truth was she never controlled Saboro, but instead it controlled her. That blood stained, thickly laced and poisonously embedded crown didn't constrict her much more. To her surprise, she figured the weight of the crown to be the reason to call her back, the tether to drag her home and to make her replace her sad, broken stature atop the Temple stairs and loom down on those who broke her law, who broke her trust, who broke
her.
Tick, tick, tick, tick—
A wheezy breath escaped her maw as she filled her lungs with air again, eyes aimlessly scanning the endless terrain before her. She'd only ever been within the neutral territory twice in her life; both times as a middle ground to a means of an end. Those ends were either Inaria, Tortuga, or returning home. The longer she remained out here, the longer she felt disoriented, confused and even a deeply setting sense of loss. Her head told her to go one way and her heart told her to go another; the crown whispered promises in her head while her companions told her of other things. Would she go back? Of course, she had to go back— For what would she
do if she didn't?
For what did she
have if she did?
Closing her eyes now, her world went calm for a second. In the middle of nowhere she needed to find her rooted space of peace, her beacon, her sanctuary. The only place she'd ever known to be that was Saboro, but until her endless page of scribbles and rewrites and redoes, she needed to find a temporary, present solution; not one far off that could be a falsehood, anyway.
"
Did you find anything?" Oriana called out, almost to no one until she had to remind herself Ciello was nearby. Her spaciness started to become a bit too obvious for her liking; it was clear as day that she had no idea where she was going or what she was doing. Who are you fooling, Oriana? "
I think maybe, we... we went too far." Her voice wasn't panicked, but it was concerned. Too far for what, exactly? The Sabora swung her head as if to reject her internal questions out of her mind. Too many voices, too many noises— All of the leaders of her passed pressed their weight on her head as if to scream YOUR PLACE IS IN SABORO.
YOU NEED TO GO BACK—
"
What if we don't find him?" She managed to rasp, rhetorically, her eyes scanned for Ciello although she didn't expect him to answer.
(
She didn't want him to answer.)
Tick, tick, tick, tick—
The breeze brushed passed her face and she blinked a few times to make sure Ciello was still standing there.
He was. He had been here this whole time. He left with you, remember? Do you regret him coming?
Do you think he regrets it?
Oriana remembered she needed to breath again, and took a seat, after realizing her legs were shaking in weird ways. "
Maybe we should go back." (Where Oriana? Home? Camp?) She spoke as her heart fluttered, anxiously.