She had lived her life to its fullest, she had lived by herself for a while, tearing loose from her family, found no one of interest beyond family ties, grown independent from them and found no way to enact with them. Her siblings simply didn't catch her attention. Lotus, maybe a little, she was always sweet and kind to her, wondering when that would end but she favored her for actually including her when she was around, and for that she was grateful to the delicate little flower.
Upon waking that morning she went out for her usual run. She kept herself in shape, sharpened her mind by running for miles, but this walk was different today. She passed few trees and hard dirt, saw the boiling tars in the distance but kept running, pacing herself to not tire herself too fast, and then she caught a familiar and sweet scent. Crux. She halted and sniffed it closer. The war had made them spend much time apart, their families in uproar over the sheer number of people who had left behind the valley - TRAITORS!, they had briefly met sometimes, talked, wrestled, honed their skills for the future to come. But always brief, short and sweet.
Had Fei been a simpler woman one might wonder if her mind would wander often to him, if she felt jealousy by hardly seeing him, but she was not that kind of little girl. She wasn't a teenager, she had almost skipped that stage completely in mind, she spend more time terrorizing the future, planning it and always keeping him in the loop of these plans. He was included to an inner circle that no one else was invited to. She didn't cuddle or kiss, rarely did she touch him but over time Crux would learn that she showed her strange affection of him in different ways. Including her in her future plans, including him in her thoughts, talk to him about her devotion, pray for him... These were the signs of affection she had given Crux and no one else. No one else had been worthy of it.
She rarely sought him out, she was not pushy or clingy, she didn't latch on to him or needed his attention, but it had been almost months since they had last seen each other and she decided that she wanted to see him - how he had grown, what he was doing with himself, was he planning or working on their future too? She walked now and followed his scent to find the answer.
Crux never disappointed her.
He was fighting an adult, a large male. It was not lost on Feizin that Crux had become handsome, but it was an observation rather than enjoyment. He could have the ugliest face on earth and it wouldn't matter if he stayed the same in his head, if he kept devote and virtue, upheld traditions, that was enough for Fei. She watched them and came closer and sat down, watching their spar, offering no words to either one, but if Crux would glance at her or look in her direction she would offer a smile, small, crooked and with a message. Make me proud.